Honey I Shrunk Myself

Here I am

2010-08-17T01:04:00.003-04:00

Wow, I just realized it has been 9 months since my last post. Long enough to have a baby...unfortunately that did not happen! But, I have managed to loose 17 pounds. I am very happy with that. I am a third of the way to my goal. I have just over 30 pounds to loose to get to my "goal."
I have joined the gym and paid for a personal trainer in the pool. I love it. I go twice a week and they also assist me with better eating plans. Which I still struggle with, but have been making better choices. I need to start drinking water. I am addicted to Diet Pepsi. It is like my drug.
My boys are wonderful and getting so big. Jacob starts school in September and Ben will start preschool at the same school. I will have two days free for me. I wonder what I will do with my time??? I am sure I will find lots to do. Like CLEAN!
We finally got our settlement. It was a fair amount of money and we have had lots of fun since getting it. We bought a pop up trailer and a new Dodge Ram truck to haul it. We have been camping a couple times and enjoy it a lot. The boys love camping too.
I am so happy with my life and even though some days my husband drives me crazy, I could not imagine travelling this journey with anyone else. Our life is exactly what I dreamt about when I was child.
I had laser eye surgery in July and it took a lot longer for my heals than I thought it would. For about 3.5 weeks I was very sorry I had it done. But since then my eyes have been improving and I am so happy. We went to Great Wolf Lodge this past weekend and it was so nice not to have to worry aboout glasses and not being able to see.
I am going to try to be better at thsi blogging thing going forward.

How is it possible to have a three year old already?

2009-11-10T20:04:00.003-05:00

We celebrated Jacob turning three this weekend. I am still in awe of this fact. I can not believe he is three already. When did this happen? The time has gone by so darn fast. He is so sweet and funny. He talks so much now and just loves to perform. Gee, I wonder where he gets that from? He loves trains and dinosaurs and recieved some of both for his birthday. My parents bought him a train table and my mom and I decorated an extra room in our basement in a train motif. It looks amazing.
I am so happy for some friends of ours who had a baby girl last night after having two boys at home already. What a blessing for them.
Benjamin has become quite the character. He chatters all the time although we rarely know what he is saying. He signs for more, all done, milk and thank-you. With more and all done being his most frequently used signs. It is quite adorable to see him use them. He runs everywhere now and tries so hard to keep up with Jake. Jake, on the other hand could care less if he has a brother or not. I certainly hope he grows out of that.
We had a nice Hallowe'en. Jacob was Spiderman and Benjamin was a baby chick. They both were so cute. Jake at first did not want to go Trick or Treating. He wanted to stay home and watch a movie instead! Once we convinced to go to a few houses he was hooked and was out til almost 9pm. Next year, he has told me, he wants to be a dinosaur and he thinks it would be a great idea if Benjamin is a paleantologist! LOL. So my mom is gearing up to sew a T-Rex costume! Anything for her Jakey.
Still struggling to make better food choices. I know this will be something I toy with all my life. But other than that we are hanging in there...

I am still living!

2009-09-25T23:10:00.004-04:00

Nothing and everything is new.
Ben has turned one and started walking at 10.5 months! He has such a funny personality and is very rough! I guess he has to be in order to keep up with his big brother.
We had a fairly large birthday party for him...about 72 people in the local park with pony rides. It was a nice day. Ben had fun.
I had this grand idea to go back to work. That lasted less than 2 months. I am home again and right where I should be. I don't know what I was thinking. I missed being with the boys so much. The boys went to Montessori while I was at work and they really loved it. We have decided to keep Jake in two days a week since he loves going. I think it will be great for him since he starts Juniour Kindergarten next Spetember already. I also like the thought of having some alone time with Ben.
Adam and I hit a rough spot in May and nearly split up. After much soul searching and determination we have turned our love around and realized what is important in our lives. Having a healthy, together family. We have been working very hard to be better for one another and communicate better.
Adam was off work from December to July. He did pick up a temporary gig that paid 1/3less than is regular job that helped a bit. But it was a very difficult 7 months. That did not help our marital issues.
I am still struggling with making healthy/better food choices. I still have to get 50pounds off. I can get very down on myself... I only have myself to blame for eating CRAP! I will get my shit together.
We have started trying for baby number 3. We want the children to be close in age and with me not getting any younger...it's now or never. We have agreed to give it 9 months and if we are not pregnant by then Adam will have a vasectomy. So cross your fingers we are meant to have another baby. I am very happy and grateful with the family we have been gifted. So if it does not happen I will certainly not be unhappy. Our two little boys are amazingly wonderful and we are so blessed.
Jacob has grown up so much. I can not believe he is going to be three. He is such a little man with a big heart and a big temper! He is so much like I was at as a child. He is the spitting image of me physically and a real chip of the ole block in every other way. It is sweet revenge for my parents who watch from the sidelines and just laugh. I guess that's the fun about being a granparent! LOL.
Anyway, for anyone who still comes to check out my sweet and simple life. Hello. And here's what been happening!

Rock Bottom

2009-04-05T23:58:00.002-04:00

I need to loose 52 pounds. I have to loose 52 pounds. I want to loose 52 pounds. So now the tough part...how to do it? Ok so knowing how to do it, and doing it are two different things.
I am so angry with myself. I had gastric bypass and thought I had the world by the tail. I had found the serect tool to waight loss and would never have to struggle with weight again. How naive of me to think that. I did not deal with the reasons why I eat. I am starting to do that now. I have joined BANA. Bulima Anorexia Nervose Association. Yes, I know I am neither of those things..but they deal with all eating disorders and I have been diagnised with Binge Eating Disorder. I am going to get to the bottom of this so that not only can I get to my health weight...but, I can get to my healthy self. I need to do this for myself and for my children. I do not want them to have to deal with these food issues. I want healthy children- mentally as well as physically.
Another thing...I will not have another baby until I loose 52 pounds... and I want another so badly. So this is for that new baby too.
I will be posting here more frequently now.. I see the BANA councellor tomorrow so I will post any ah-ha moments I have.
Something needs to be done and I have to be the one to do it. I have hit rock bottom and I will be the one to lift myself up out of the darkness.

Pics of Benjamin

2008-11-18T00:38:00.005-05:00

They went in backwards... so Birth is at the bottom...1.5 months and then today at the top...
He is so funny.
I will post more later... All is well.

Computer Problems

2008-11-12T10:21:00.002-05:00

So I know I have been very neglectful..but since July our computer has been down and hubby just sat down to fix it last night.
As you have guessed...our son has been born.
We chose to name him Benjamin Saul.
He was born 2 weeks 5 days early on August 27th at 2:45AM He was tiny...weighing 6 pounds 7 ounces and was 18 inches long. He is perfect and wonderful.
Jacob has tunred two and has adjusted well to being a big brother. He calls the Ben...My Baby and wants to hug, hold and kiss him all the time.
It has been an adjustment but has gone quite well. Ben started sleeping 6 hours at night at 4 weeks and by 8 weeks we was sleeping 8 hours. How could I complain about that?
Since our computer was down I have not had a chance to download any pictures of him...once I do you will see him. He is beautiful. He is very different from Jake. Hard to imagine they are brothers. LOL.
I am struggling with my weight. I have been making very poor food choices. I need to fix myself or I am at risk of gaining my weight back. I am scared.
I promise to be better at posting now that I can.

Week 30 Ultrasound

2008-07-11T23:30:00.002-04:00

I know I should have pics to go along with this post but it is 11:30 at night and I am too tired to go get them to scan them in! LOL.
But it went well, he is still a boy (thankfully), he is right on track and he weighs about 3 pounds 9 ounces.The tech had a hard time getting some of the measurements because he was moving around so much. Also he was not yet "breathing" on his own...but she said they just start doing it at 30 weeks and not to worry. They will see it next time at our 34 week ultrasound. Dr Mundle was happy and told me to keep doing what I do best! LOL. Also I lost a pound...so that puts me up 28 pounds! 3 more than with Jake. It's so hard to see the scale going up since I have worked so hard to get my excess weight off but I know come September I will kick my butt to get back to where I was and then hopefully smaller even. I would love to get to my goal. I will not allow myself to get pregnant again until I am at my goal..
The weather has been great and hot..I am loving it. Jake and I have been using his pool a bit but mostly we go to my parent's house and swim there. I am so happy Jake likes the water as much as he does.
Jake turned 20 months old on the 9th and got his first haircut. My mom did it as it is a tradition in our family that she do all the first haircuts on the kids. (She used to be a hairdresser) He moved around a lot so she had a hard time. But nonetheless it looks cute and he looks more like a little boy now. Which makes me sad. He has been talking so much lately and loves to hear new words, he gets so proud of himself when says new things. Today he wanted a pool noodle at my mom's so he said "noonle?" I said, "please???" so then he said, "pease noonle!" it was so adorable. I just love the way he pronounces things. He is such a treasure.
We have narrowed down the name search to three: Gavin, Ryan or Matthew. So now we just have to continue saying them and see which one fits in the end. I can not believe how hard it is this time to name the baby. With Jacob we just knew. For awhile I was thinking that maybe the tech was wrong last time and really we were having a girl and that was why none of the boy names were sounding right. But that is not the case.
Anyway, gotta run to bed. We have a birthday party to go to tomorrow and I need some sleep.

Week 28

2008-06-25T12:18:00.002-04:00

Once again all is well. Thank-fully. That's for sure. Heart rate is 150 and steady. Can't ask for more than that. I gained about 3 pounds since last month..not too bad either. I go in 2 weeks for our next ultrasound. I am very excited about that.
Jacob is great. Growing taller everyday and talking more and more. He cracks us up.
My parents have been in Las Vegas for about 9 days now and I have missed them terribly. They come home tomorrow morning and I can not wait to hug them. It sounds like they have had a great time.
My beautiful niece turns 4 years old on Monday. We are celebrating her birthday on Sunday. I can not believe she is already 4 and will be starting school in September. It seems like only yesterday she was born. It is so true how fast the time goes. She is such a great little girl I can not imagine my world without her in it. She adds so much joy to my life. Her and Jacob get along so well and it is so much fun to see them together. They are so funny.

Week 25 Appointment

2008-06-14T11:20:00.002-04:00

Went well with no complications. I was concerned because I had not been feeling a lot of movemnet from the baby but Dr Mundle explained to me that my placenta was on the front of my uterus this time and that it was absorbing some of the "shock" from the kicks of the baby. So not to worry. Lately though I have been feeling stronger movements and that makes me feel better. I love that feeling. Iwill see the doctor in 3 weeks and then every two weeks after that. I have my next ultrasound at week 30 and then the next one at 34 weeks. We will also be going for our 3D ultrasound around week 33 I am very excited about that ultrasound.
I have started playing the baby music before bed time and either he really likes it or is irratated by it because he moves around a lot when he hears it. I did the same for Jacob and I think it really helped in his development. The statics say that babies who are played music in utero are stronger, sit up sooner, walk faster etc. I know with Jake that seems true because he did all of that at an early age. I was thinking one night that maybe I do not want this baby to start those things as early..lol. But, how can I offer one of my children an advantage and not the other?
Still no decision in the name department. This week I like Michael Lawerence...we'll see by next.
Tomorrow being Father's Day we are going to my parents for a barbeque and a swim...hopefully the weather hold up. We bought my dad a digital picture frame for his desk at work and I loaded all the pictures on it yesterday. I want one, it is so awesome.
I have been feeling kind of funky lately. I miss Adam a lot because he works nights. I feel a bit isolated and alone. He has been on nights for almost a year now and I feel like a single parent most of the time. He comes home early in the morning and goes to bed ussually before we are awake...then he gets up for lunch with us most days then Jake and I go for our naps, by the time we wake up its nearly dinner time and then he leaves by 6pm. I feel bad for Adam too because he only sees Jake for about 2 hours a day. I know he has to work and I do not begrudge him at all. I know it is not his choosing to be "gone" so much. It's just hard because I am really a stay at home mom which I know is what I wanted and I do love that I can be here for our son..he brings so much joy to my life...I just never expected it to be so tiring! I can not imagine though how much more tiring it would be if I had to get up with him in the morning...and get us both ready, drop him off at day care and then go to work all day, pick him up at day care then come home make dinner, play with him. do bath, and bed time too. I would rather be as tired as I am then know what that tired is! I give working moms so much credit. I think they are so strong. So I know there are pluses and minuses to both situations but these hormones sometimes make it hard to see. I am so grateful that Adam has this job so that I can stay home that is the main thing, sometimes I just loose site of that. Hopefully the next time the runs come up for bids he can get on a day shift.
Anyway, nothing else has been really going on. Just hanging out with my boy and playing in the new pool my dad bought him. He loves the water so much and the weather has been so hot lately.

Not a good fit

2008-05-27T21:32:00.002-04:00

Everytime I say the name "Andrew" in reference to our yet to be born baby it just does not feel right! I can not get around it. So as of now our new baby is nameless. Adam says then we have to wait til he is born to choose a name for him. I am ok with that. I think that will be exciting, to wait and see what he looks like then give the kid a name! So for now he is known as "Baby Noble # 2."
Kind of reminds of the movie Breakfast at Tiffany's where the cat had no name. Just cat. And then Holly said "Well, then I'll some furniture and give the cat a name!" "Poor Cat, poor slob without a name!" So that's our son....Poor Kid, poor slob without a name. Just like cat. Hey maybe there is name from that movie we could use. I'll have to take another gander at the movie and see if anything sticks out.
Right now, I like the name Alexander...but, Adam does not like Alex...I said that was ok because maybe we could call him Zander. He didn't seem to mind that too much and I like the way Jake and Zander sound together. But would you spell it with the X? Xander? Or change it up with the Z? So hard to decide. We'll see. I'll keep you posted if anything changes or we have a name epiphany.
My cousin got married on Saturday. It was a nice day. I was so happy for them that the weather was so nice. The girls dresses were a really pretty cherry red colour and so beautiful. I loved her colour scheme. Now they are honeymooning in St. Lucia, sucks to be them. LOL.
Well all is well on the pregnancy front...Nothing new to report, other than the name thing.
Jake has (at least the last 3 days) decided he does not need an afternoon nap. Must to my chagrin, I have to say! I am going to keep trying because I still need my nap! LOL. But, it's been a 90 minute struggle with no nap resulting in the end. And when I put him to bed earlier he resists that too. And is not sleeping in later either. In fact this morning he awoke rather early! Little stinker. Oh well maybe it's just a phase. I hope it passes with naps.

Andrew Joseph Russell

2008-04-21T15:36:00.002-04:00

It was so exciting to learn that we would be having another boy. I am so excited about the two of them growing up so close together in age. In the scan, Andy looked so much like Jacob, it was so cute. I am getting ready to go through Jake's old clothes so that I know exactly what it is we need for Andy. Although I am pretty sure there will be very little we need.
On Tuesday we had a little scare. I was walking in the kitchen and slipped on a placemat that was lying on the floor. I went ass over tea-kettle and landed at the other end of our kitchen and knocked my head on the ceramic tile and then fell to my left side. My glasses cut the top of my left eye, broke and I instantly got a shiner. It friken hurt so bad. I thought I was going to pass out. About an hour later I started to feel some cramping so Adam took me into the hospital. They imediately performed an ultrasound and we saw that the baby was ok. They also did bloodwork to make sure the placenta was still in tact and that came back clear too. I was sent to the ER to be checked out and after a series of tests they concluded that I did not have a concussion and we were sent home. I look like I was in a bar fight though. With this crazy black eye I think that people are looking at Adam and I like we are some rubby dubs. It was a good thing my best friend was here that day so that she could stay and look after Jakey. I was just relieved that Andy was ok tucked right inside where he belongs.
I have been feeling signs of life every now and again. It is so familiar and wonderful. I love feeling him move around. What a miracle being pregnant is.
Jake has been throwing little tantrums lately honestly I think it so funny when he does it. So far I have not found it hard to just ignore him. I ussually end up leaving the room to laugh. They do not last long because once he realizes no one is paying attention to him he stops. He has been talking up a storm too and even legible words have been spoken. He really has such a cute voice and I love it when he babbles on and on. It cracks me up. For Easter we bought him a water activity centre and today was the first time he was able to play with it, outside. It wasn't enough for him to just stand up on the outside of it and play. no our son had to climb right into it and sit down! What a clown. His daiper was socked. Then once he was through, he took off his diaper and ran around the yard naked! He is so darn funny.
I am taking him swimming tomorrow with my God-Daughter and her mother. We are starting a swim lesson program with them. It should be so much fun. Jacob loves the water so much. Which reminds me I have to go buy some little swimmers tonight before we go.
Anyway, I guess that's all that's new. I will keep updating.

Baby Noble is a...

2008-04-14T18:09:00.001-04:00

BOY! .
I knew it. Adam was so sure it was a girl! I am so happy we are welcoming another boy into our family. Jake and "Andy" will be the cutest Bad Asses around! LOL.

What's Happening

2008-04-04T22:01:00.002-04:00

I am feeling better and have been for about 2 weeks now. The iron and the B12 have finally kicked in. I am taking the B12 once a week now and still 4 iron pills a day. But, I feel a lot more alive now than I have in a long time. Thankfully. Last week Jacob and I made sure to be busy everyday, but still made it home for our naps eachday but Friday. It was a busy week, but a good one. This week was a bit more lazy and I felt more tired. I think I am going to start planning stuff to do so I have more energy. The weather has started getting warmer which is also helping. This week, Jake and I went for a couple walks in the wagon, which he loves so much. He has learned a few new signs in the past little while and is now signing bath, cookie, all done, baby and milk. It is so cute to see him sign because his little hands are so chubby. I just want to kiss them when I see him sign. Which I very often do. His ears seemed to be bothering him so I took him to the pediatrian but his ears were clear. His throat was a little red but the doctor thinks it's just a virus so said we really can't treat that. He mentioned that because Jacob's molars have started to come in his ears could be bothered by that. Jake also has this funny rash on his body and face so I asked the dr to take a look at that too. He said the rash on his body is just from being a little over heated and that his sweat glands are swollen...he said with the warm weather coming up we will probably see more of it because of Jake's sensitive skin...but the one on his face is caused by some sort of irritant coming in contact with his face... he said maybe he's being kissed too much! I said. oh no not this baby..why would we want to kiss him. LOL. He thought maybe I was wearing a lip gloss that might be an irritant. But said also it could be from drool when he eats etc. He suggested washing his face more often and being sure to dry it well. I really love Jake's dr he is so great with us and with Jake.
The pregnancy is going well. This week I felt a couple of good thumps from inside. I love that feeling. I can not wait to start feeling them more frequently and more definate. I moved up the ultrasound because I can't stand not knowing anymore. I pray we do not have a modest baby. So we now go on April 14th. 9 days from now and even that wait is killing me. Adam is sure that we are having a girl...I am sure a boy! So it's been fun with our little war going on. Everytime either of us dream about the baby it's a girl...but I still feel boy. We still can not agree on a girl's name so watch it will probably be a girl just so that we can spend the next 5 months arguing about that. A boy would be too easy! LOL.
Our nephew, who was born at 33 weeks gestation, is doing really well. He came home at 3 weeks old and was 4 pounds 1 oz at birth and is now 5 weeks old and weighs 6 pounds 9 oz! What a kid. He is eating really well and sleeping well too. My sil says she is tired but she is so happy with the baby's progress. We are so happy for her and her family. This little miracle was a long time coming and they deserve tons of happiness. Their older son is doing great with the new baby, as we all knew he would. He is such a great kid. We are going to see them in May. It seems so far away. But they live so far away and in May the ferry to get to them starts running and it cuts off 4 hours of driving. So we are waiting for then to take the trip. Plus, Adam will have a weeks vacation in May so we can spend a little bit longer and not have to rush back over a week-end. It will be nice to see them and to meet the baby.
I will stay posted on the results of the ultrasound.. Please keep unmodest baby thoughts for us please!

Dr Mundle

2008-03-12T22:23:00.003-04:00

I saw Dr Mundle on Monday and everything is going well. I am measuring right on target and the baby looks good. He tried to hear the heartbeat and everytime he found it the baby would "swim" away. It was so funny because that is what Jake used to do too. So he took me in to the ultrasound room and we got a sneak peek! I asked him if it was too early to see the sex of the baby and he said we could take a look. However, Sweet Pea had their back to us and as Dr Mundle put it, "unless your baby has a penis he could use as a weapon, were unlikely to see anything!" So, it's good to know there is no weapon in there but I will have to be patient and wait until April 28th when I have my official untrasound to find out. It seems so far away, but I am sure it will go by fast...God willing. The heartrate was 140, so I am convinced that the baby is a boy. Although, with Jake his heartrate was always in the 160's and I thought for sure he was going to be a girl...and well, we all know how that panned out. LOL. Anyway it really does not matter. But, I can not wait to find out for sure. I am still very tired, I had started to feel better but the tiredness came back. The Dr said we will continue with the oral iron for the next month and repeat the bloodwork 1 week before the ultrasound and if it is not better then we will talk about starting a regimine of IV iron. I think that because of my gastric bypass, even though I am taking in 800mg of iron a day only a portion of that is being absorbed. A friend of mine, who too had Gastric Bypass told me about a pouch absorption test that is available. I may call the hospital where I had my surgery and see if they know anything about that. I know here in Canada they will not have heard of that. So, I hope that the oral iron starts kicking in soon...
I have gained a total of 8 pounds since finding out I am pregnant. Not too bad...but with Jakey it took me 5 months to gain that much weight! I guess things are different this time around since I am home and have access to food anytime I want it. LOL.
I can not wait for the warmer weather to get here. I hate Winter so much. I know that once Spring is here Jake and I will get out a lot more. Jake just loves being outdoors. The cold air does not even seem to bother him. I really should take him out more often to keep him liking being outside.
Jake had his first ice cream cone the other day and loved it so much. He did really good with it and made very little mess. My mom, dad, Adam and I were killing ourselves laughing at how much fun he was having with it. He is such a joy. Was there life before Jake?

2nd trimester

2008-03-02T19:41:00.002-05:00

Everthing is better now that I have recovered from the 1st trimester exhaustion. I was so damn tired somedays I could not even get off the couch. I have had 3 b12 shots and I take 4 iron pills a day! But, I feeling so much more alive now. I am anxiuos to find out what I am carrying. I have to wait a little over a month now. I think I will be ok to wait for that. LOL. I think we will have another boy, but I really hope for a girl. Of coarse though I am just so thrilled to be pregnant again that it really does not matter either way. We are having a hard time finding a girl name this time. But for a boy we have settled on Andrew Joseph Russell. I will keep you posted on the girl situation.
Jacob has been talking a lot more lately. Not really legible words but jibber jabbering all the time. It is so cute. He has learned to say momma and says it non stop...somedays I want to change my name. LOL. But he is such a great boy. We are really lucky. He is super busy though and is always on the go. We have to watch him every second. He has a real funnybone and is very mischevious. I love it. He knows he is getting himself in trouble and just smiles at us as he does the thing he is not suppose to. It just makes us laugh. I love being his mother.
Anyway, nothing else is new. I see my OB next Monday. I think he will order the ultrasound that day for April. Let the countdown begin!

All is well

2008-01-22T18:22:00.000-05:00

We had our first ultrasound and saw the heartbeat. I have decided to go back to the same OB as last time because I have a good rapport with him and his staff and the other guy could not see me until April 9th. I am too high maintainance to wait that long! I saw Dr Mundle the same day as the ultrasound...which was on January 17th. I am feeling a lot more sick this time. I think it has more to do with all the iron I am having to take. It makes me feel like shit after I eat.
My mom had a bladder suspension last week and is doing well.
We are on Manitoulin Island this week visiting my sister and brother in law and my nephew. We are having a good time. Our neice came with us and she is being such a good girl.. Not that that is a surprise she is such a great kid. Today my SIL and I went to her dr's appointment(she is 28 weeks pregnant) and then out to lunch and to do some shopping. It was nice to spend sometime with her.
All is well.

Pregnancy News

2008-01-05T17:14:00.000-05:00

I had my blood work done and it confirmed I am pregnant. My BHCG was around 77 so exactly where it should be for the stage I am at. We will be repeating the Beta's this week to be sure that they are continuing to double. But with the CBC's she did my hemo-globincame back really low. 101 when they should be around 120. So I am on Preg-Vit, iron, calcium and stool softeners. Hey anything to make this a healthy, viable pregnancy.
I feel fine. Just a bit of nausea about the same amount I had with Jacob. So far I have been lucky.
Once again though I do find myself consumed with being pregnant. It's pretty much all I think about. LOL. I have noticed my tummy bloating a bit and some of my pants feel a bit tight in that area already. Of coarse I am blaming the pregnancy and not the Christmas Holiday cookies! LOL.
I will be seeing the doctor that delivered Jacob this pregnancy. He was not the my OB last time but I really liked him a lot. He was very nice and comforting. I liked his manner better than the OB I had last time. I should have my first appointment with him in February sometime I am guessing. My GP also will be scheduling my 6-8 ultrasound this week. I am excited to have that. I know with Jake and 7 weeks 3 days he really did not look like much...but I could see his little heart beating and that was enough to send me to heaven and back.
Anyway, lots happening this next week so I will be sure to keep posted.

Happy New Year to us!

2008-01-03T22:40:00.000-05:00

We are settled into our house and are loving the space so much. Jacob is loving his new Sesame Street room and his playroom. There is a lot of storage and we have so many cupboards in the kitchen that some have not been filled yet!
Anyway, I don't have a lot time right now because I am dead tired but I wanted say...
I am pregnant! We are due in September and are so thirlled. Jacob and the new baby will be 22 months apart. So perfect. Anyhow I will update more later once I have a few more minutes.

SOLD!

2007-10-30T22:30:00.000-04:00

Yes, our house is sold. Amen. We move November 30th! I am feeling a little overwhelmed by all the work there is to do, but I know I can do it. The new house we bought is great. It is in the same neighborhood I grew up in and we will be living on the same street that I played on as a child. I love the thought that my children will grow up playing there too. We are a 5 minute walk to Wal-Mart and other shopping and about 10 minutes to "downtown" and the library. I love the location.
Jacob is doing well. He is such a clown. I love his personality. It is crazy to think that he will be 1 in 11 days. Seems like just yesterday I was getting ready to deliver him. His birthday is going to be quick the party. There were 75 people invited! Some of those people are out of town so I know they will not be coming. When we give a party-we give a party! My mom has something planned...she won't tell me what it is and I am just as happy to be surprised on the day of. I think it is so cool that she cares so much for Jake to plan something. I can not wait to see what it is.
Jake has gotten really good at going to bed. I so happy that we finally got it together. I am now working on nap time. Today, he did really good. No fighting at all.
Anyway, all is well in the Noble house.

I Know It's Been Awhile

2007-10-24T23:17:00.000-04:00

So, for the sake of anyone out there who may still read this, here is an update.
Adam healed well and his father's service was very nice. There was such a good turn out at the grave side and the head stone that Adam's sister picked out is beautiful.
Jacob is getting so big and has been walking around for almost 2 weeks now. It's sheer madness because he is so busy and is into everything all the time. He loves to climb anything he can. He has learned to "dance" with Granny, slap Hi Five, sign for milk, more and eat. He "talks" all the time and although we can not understand him we have fun trying to figure out what he wants. He loves to feed himself and recognizes Tim Horton's Timbit boxes and thinks he loves Diet Pepsi...He screams for it until you allow him to have a sip! He tries to steal it from us and carry it around the room. He is such a big boy. He enjoys empty ice cream cones and looks so cute carrying it around and taking little bites from it. He has 4 teeth now, but still very little hair and the hair...errr peach fuzz that is there is reddish.
Adam is enjoying his job and it still looks like I will be able to stay home. I have to let my work know by the end of this month.
As far as our house....we have accepted an offer and we are just wating for the people to remove their conditions... they had the home inspection done today and tomorrow they should have their financing...Friday our house should be sold! Yeah. We have found a new house we like and have placed an offer on it, we just still going back and forth with it...we should know by tomorrow if the offer is accepted.
Things are coming together for us...
Anyway that is it. Nothing else is new.
I will update sooner this time.

Off to the Island

2007-08-02T20:44:00.000-04:00

This has been a crazy month...Adam had surgery on July 5th to repair a hernia, then his dad passed away on July 6th. It was sad to see him go but at the same time we did not want to see him suffer anymore. The memorial is this week-end. It is the same weekend that Adam's mom passed away 3 years ago so it is like a double whammy. But the service will be nice because the headstone will be unveiled so it will be nice to also remember her too.
Adam is healing well from his surgery...low and behold he had no complications this time. Imagine that! LOL.
He also got a new job! Hauling cars which is a great paying job and means....(drum roll please) I may not have to return to work. If all goes well that is. But the way it is looking right now, looks really good!
Our house is still sitting on the market. I hate this waiting in Limbo game. I know that it has to sell soon...it will 6 months on the 5th...but enough already. The offer on the other house has expired and we have opted not to renew it. We will just wait and see and when ours sells then we can go back in with an unconditional offer if that house is still available and maybe get it for cheaper. I just have to keep remembering that God has great plans for us and to keep positive.
Still not pregnant again...but again I refer to the above sentence.
Jake is doing amazing. I can not believe how he never ceases to amaze me. He is so busy and so damn funny. We laugh at him so much sometimes it hurts. He weighs 18 pounds 14 ounces and is 28 inches long. He is wearing size 9 months now so he is right where he should be. What a great little boy he is. We have started teaching him sign language and he just laughs everytime we show him a sign..it is really funny..but anyday now I know he will do it back to us and we will be amazed. He still has yet to say Mama...but Dada is always being muttered. It's become quite the joke in our household. And his little sick sense of humour keeps us chuckling.
We had dinner with my cousins the other night, we had not seen them in a really lind time so it was so nice to be with them. I hope that this was the beginning of renewed friendship. I would love that a lot.
Anyway, that's all that's new.

7 months 3 weeks old

2007-07-02T14:29:00.000-04:00

Sorry I have not updated in over 2 months. We have been busy enjoying our son.
Who has been crawling since he was 6.5 months old and is now walking along the furniture! We is always moving and shaking! He loves to say dad-dad-dad and it is so cute to hear his voice. He loves to yell and shreik all the time. Everytime I say to him say momma he just laughs and says dad-dad. It is so funny. He makes us laugh constantly. We say that in a million years we could never have guessed he would be so perfect. We could never have "ordered" him so wonderful.
We are still trying to sell our house...we do have an offer on another house that we really hope to get. It has 4 bedrooms, 4 levels, 2 baths, a beautiful oak show piece kitchen, grade level entrance and a huge backyard. It is the perfect family home for us. I hate having the house on the market though, it is stressful. People have been coming through every week and we bust our ass to clean it and then nothing. But I am trying to remain hopeful that one time all the hard work will pay off and we will get an offer on our home so that we can move into our new one.
We are still trying to concieve our second child. We will know if we were successful this cycle by Thursday. I hope we were. I would love to have another baby. I just love being a mother so much. And Jake is growing and changing so fast that I miss his babiness so much. Plus, I just loved being pregnant and I can not wait to experience it again. I hope we have a girl next...but I will not be picky. I love being a mother to a son so another son would be a very welcome additon to our family. We do not want to find out this time what we will be having...If that is we can last that long without knowing! LOL. I can not wait till we are to be blessed with our second child.
We had to put our sweet adorable 15 year old cat to sleep last month. It was very hard on all of us, especially my dad. He and the cat were the best of buds. Toby, our cat was a great pet and we still miss him...I am sure we will for a long time. I had him since I was 17 and he was my first baby. He had liver cancer and had stopped eating and was in pain so as much as it hurt to say goodbye we knew we could not keep him here suffering. My mom and I were with him the entire time and it was a very peaceful expereince. I know he is in a better place and not suffering.

5 Months Old

2007-04-10T13:21:00.000-04:00

Five months already? Wherever did the time go?
He is still the most adorable boy I have ever know. I can not believe how much I love motherhood. I mean I knew I would like it, but what I feel for this little boy is more than I ever thought possible.
He is rolling over both ways now, he is sitting up on his own, he is sleeping at night really well but, we are having a hard time just putting him the crib because he screams bloody murder for at least 30 minutes and I can't stand to hear him upset. This week Adam is home (due to lay off) so it should be easier with us both here. At least Adam can sit on me so I won't go in and get Jake. Nap times too are a struggle. It's just he is so nossy he does not want to miss anything. He loves playing in his Leap Frog Exersaucer and just sort of swings in his Jolly Jumper. My parents gave him a walker for Easter so we will see what happens with that. It is the most adorable thing ever. He tends to go backwards in it but I know forwards will come with time.
Yesterday he started to say Da-Da! He screams it and it's so cute. He talks all the time now.
He has such a temper and it makes me laugh now, but I know that when he is 2 and throwing fits in the Wal-Mart I may not think it's so cute! But for now I just laugh at him.
He has been eating fruits and vegetables for about 3 weeks now and has done really well. He loves peas and squash and pears and applesauce. 1/2 a jar at each feeding. He is such a good eater.
There was a couple who came through our house on Saturday ans they liked it however, they want to see a couple others in the area before they choose. They are suppose to be going through those ones on Thursday. I think they will be back. The other couple is still somewhat interested and maybe coming through sometime this week-end. I really hope it sells soon. I hate being in limbo. It sucks.
Anyway nothing else is new.

Jake and Mommy

2007-04-01T16:20:00.000-04:00

Here are the pics of Jake and I.
Enjoy!

Is it Easy Being Green?

2007-03-31T15:18:00.000-04:00

You Are Mint Green

Balanced and calm, you have mastered the philosophy of living well.

Your friends seek you out for support, and you are able to bring stability to chaotic situations.

You're very open and cheerful - and you feel like you have a lot of freedom in life.

Your future may hold any number of exciting things, and you're ready for all of them!

What Color Green Are You?

We're Home

2007-03-22T22:55:00.000-04:00

It was a long 17 days, but we are home. Adam's dad is stable...he will probably not get any better than he is now, but for now they think that unless he has another stroke he will not get worse. The hard part is that in his state he still needs 24 hour care. I feel bad for my sil because she is all alone with him. I wish there was more we could do to help. I guess all we can do is pray that she has the strength to go on and the strength to ask her brother when she needs him.
Jacob and I went for our Madonna portraits...they turned out really nice...once I get to a scanner I will post some here.
Our 4 month old son had his 4 month shots today...oh how I hate that second shot...he screamed to loud it broke my heart. Luckily he was easily consoled once I picked him up. He weighs 14 LBS 4 ONZ is 25.5 inches long. His thighs are so chubby now and he almost has no wrists left! LOL. I love it.
We started him on rice cereal, vegtables, and fruits. He really likes the green peas and the bananas. Not so much the rice..unless we mix it with the bananas! Can't say I blame him though...it looks very gross on its own. He is still sleeping through the night and is now napping a lot better during the day. His gums have been really bothering him so we have been putting Anbesol on his gums, it really seems to help. Jacob is really the most pleasant babt I have ever meant. He is so easy to please and just so happy. I love being his mommy so much.
Our house is still for sale...we just replaced 1/3 of the roof on Tuesday so that makes the whole roof new. Adam is working on fixing the drywall hiccups and then next week my mom and I will be painting. I love painting so I can not wait. The couple that came through again and then again for a third time want to come back through once the work is completed so please keep your fingers crossed for us. There are a few houses that we like the look of...we will not allow ourselves to go into any of them until ours is sold because we do not want to get our hearts set on something. Our friends just bought a house down the street from one are interested in looking at if it is still available. It would be neat to be accross the street from them. They have a little guy who was born just 6 weeks after Jacob. I keep reminding myself that what will be will be...but it's hard for me not to get my hopes up.
I will keep you posted.

What's been Happrning

2007-03-05T16:52:00.000-05:00

My father in law is terminally ill so my hubby, myself and Jake have been with him and my hubby's sister in their hometown for the last 10 days. We will be here for another 5 sleeps. They live about 10 hours away from our home so I am a little homesick. We have been staying in a hotel so at least we have our own space. I feel bad for my hubby and his sister because once their father dies they will be orphans and they are much to young to be orphans. It has been hard on them both. Their mom just died 2.5 years ago!
My little son is the most adorable little man I know. He is starting to laugh out loud a lot and he "talks" in responsive to us all the time now. He also likes to play this game with his bib where he puts the bib over his face and then screams at the top of his lungs and when we move the bib he just puts it right back over his face again! It's so funny. He loves his fingers and is constantly "eating" them. He fights his afternoon naps even though you can so tell he is the most tired. He is still not lulling himself to sleep...I must rock him and sing to him. This could be partially my fault though since I enjoy it too. I want to do it as long as he'll let me because I know it won't be long before he has no time for me! He is grasping his toys now too and yelling at them and holding his bottle up too. I love all the new stages he is growing into. He is so much fun. Some nights he is even sleeping 12 hours. Those are nice. He wakes up in such a great mood now and just smiles at me and talks to me. I love it. He is really laughing now too when I bite his chibby legs...and chibby they are. He is about 15 pounds I think. I will be trying to take him to get weighed this Thursday for his 4 month birthday! 4 months already...I can not believe it.
Our house has had a couple people through it. I hope it sells this time for sure. There are a few house on the market that we are interested in. Although we are trying not to get our hopes up too much because they could be gone before we get our love shack sold.
I am not pregnant. Aunt Flo showed up. Oh well there`s always next month right! LOL.
Anyway nothing else is new. I will update once I have little mans weight!
Have I mentioned how much I love him and how much I love being his mother

3 Months Old

2007-02-15T07:36:00.000-05:00

I am a little late writing this post, but I have busy loving my son.
He has started to giggle! It is the most adorable sound in the world and it tears at my heart strings when he does it and I find myself constantly trying to make him laugh. LOL. He is really starting to respond to us too and he loves to hear his own voice. He has the softest little voice and it sounds like he may be a soft spoken boy, much like my grandfather was. He makes an H sound that really sounds like he is saying hi or ha, and a Y sound that sounds like ya! It is a scream to talk to him and have him talk back. The other day my mom and I were in the van with him and he was kinda fussy a bit, so I said to him: "Jake, are you ok?" and just then he made this sound... "uh-huh" My mom and I looked at eachother like did you hear what I heard and we just started to laugh. Then he started to cry and I swear the kid said "pig" well that made us laugh even harder. Poor kid is going to have a complex before he's six months old! He is so strong and wants to stand up all the time. If he is leaning on something he will stand up holding it. (I will add a photo of that later, I am not at home!) Also, he is sitting up with very little help...of coarse for both of these stunts we are never far away from him. He has been suffering from a cold since the middle of January and it sounded like it was going away, but it has come back. His little nose sounds awful and when I took him to the doctors she looked up his nose and was a little concerned that his nasal passages look very tiny, so she is referring us to us to a specialist. It turns out that the specialist she is sending him to is the pediatrician I wanted to go to, but he does not accept new patients..so I was very happy about that. I am not happy with the peditrician we were going to so our family doctor is going to take over his care...unless this new peed with take Jacob on. We'll see. I am giving Jacob some Saline Nasal Drops and some Dimetapp when he sounds really congested. It is sounding a lot better. I am loving motherhood more and more, I was just saying to my mom that I never expected our baby to be this wonderful. I know that may sound weird, but what I mean is that I knew I would love him more than anything but, I never knew I could love someone as much as I love him or that he would bring this much joy into our lives. He is a special little man. I find that I am turning into my mother more and more and it just makes me laugh...There are much worse things in life to turn into...let me tell you.

Stars and Strollers

2007-02-07T11:53:00.000-05:00

Jacob and I went to the movies yesterday. At the theater here twicew a month they have a matinee where parents can bring the babies and watch a movie. I went with my God daughter and her mom and another friend and her son. It was nice. There was about 50 parents and babies and they showed "Catch and Release" It was good but not what I expected. We will go back. The babies were really good though and Jacob slept through most of the movie.
In Canada they implemented this new tax credit called Universal Child Care Benefit. We recieve $100/month for each child under 8 years old. WE will be recieving our first check on the 20th! It is retro-active from his birth so that money will help a lot. Also we are entitled to Child Tax Credit which I did not think we would be elegible for because of our income but we will recieve about $65/month for that too. So that will help a lot.
Anyway nothing else is new.

Aunt Flo Came to Town.

2007-02-04T18:21:00.000-05:00

and she is kicking my ass! LOL. Be careful what you wish for! This is the exact cycle we got pregnant with last year! Wish us luck! I can't say that I am positive we will have as good of luck this time, afterall it took us 3 years to concieve Jacob! Mind you, he was well worth the wait and the heartache. As I am sure his brother or sister will be too. No matter how long it takes to have them. I am hoping for another boy this time. If we have another boy, Adam has agreed to try again for a girl. If we have a girl, he is thinking that we should be done! I would like more than 2 children though... But, we'll see!
We went out on a date on Saturday and we saw Because I said So. It was so good. We also went to dinner at Tony Roma's Yummy. We ate far too much and I felt sick. I had my first 1/2 glass of wine since before my gastric bypass...(August 24th, 2005) and I was very wozzy! I am a cheap drunk now, that's for sure.
We had my god daughter's baptism today. It went really well. We got some really cute pictures of her and Jake together... she had on her bonnet and looked a little amish and her granpa said can't you see them in the future making furniture in St. Jacob's? We'll we laughed so hard. They also looked like that old couple on the Corn Flakes commercial....all they needed was a pitch fork! Poor babies. This week-end too my God Daughter's great aunt decided that they should be married to eachother one day! We laughed about that too. Pre-arraging the marriages. How old fashioned!

12 Weeks

2007-01-30T17:41:00.000-05:00

Hi everyone. No we have not fallen off the face of the earth. We have the slowest internet connection on the planet and it takes too long for me to do anything so I ussually just don't.
We had Jacob's christening and he was so good. We had 24 people back to our house after and he was so sweet. He did not seem to mind all those people around him.
He had his fisrt cold, but it was not bad at all. He had the sniffles and the sneezes and it is almost gone now! He was still as pleasant as ever though, it really did not seem to bother him too much. He did not get a fever so that was good.
He is now sleeping through the night at least 8 hours stretches. It is so great. He very rarely sleeps during the day...just little cat naps here and there. He has found his hands and seems to have either is fist or his index finger in his mouth. He now weighs 12 pounds 13 ounces and has doubled his birth weight. His thighs have the most cute ruffles he is filling out so nicely. He is in most of his 3 months stuff but it is still a bit big on him. His 0-3months stuff fits in the body but the length is short..he is 24 inches long now!
I have been having a hard time with my moods. I yell at Adam a lot... I know he probably deserves it.. LOL. and I have been weepy. I worry about everything. Jake, money, my cat, my parents...so today my doctor gave me some meds to help! I hope they take effect soon. I don't think Adam nor I can go on much longer. I am so in love with my son. I am happy about being his mom and he is not a hard baby to take care of I just feel overwhlemed sometimes. But these feelings are worth it though. I love being a mom. Especially Jake's mom. My period has not resumed yet...12 weeks and still no sign. I have not nursed him since week 1. I know some of you are thinking...No period? Are you bitching our bragging? And if I did not want to try again so soon for number 2 I would be very happy about it but nit having a period is not conducive to getting pregnant. LOL. So I sit and wait.
We have run out of room in our house so we have an agent coming in Saturday to discuss listing it. I would like to be out by summer. Wish us luck!
My God-daughter is being baptized on Sunday. I picked up her gift today. I bought her a gold cross necklace, a bonnet that she wears on her christening day and then when she gets married she uses it as a hanky, and outfit and a time capsule keepsake. I am so honoured to her Godmother. She is my first God Child and probably my only since most of my friends are through having children. I love being her Godmother she is so sweet. I am excited about Sunday.
So that's it for the update.
Here is a picture of my boy..enjoy

2 Months Old

2007-01-10T10:20:00.000-05:00

Wow, 2 months already. Another great month has passed. We did have our moments of frustration with Jacob having his nights and days mixed up but we were lucky to only have that last 3 weeks! I have heard of families that had to deal with that for months so I am very thankful that it only lasted weeks. Jacob is now in his crib at night time and for most naps. At night he is sleeping a good 6 hours.. sometimes more. I can not complain about that. He is smiling so much now and we are having fun making him smile. His whole face lights up when he smiles and our faces start to hurt from smiling back at him. He has started to screech a bit when he smiles sometimes and that is so adorable. He gets very mad at us when we take the bottle away from him to have a burp as well when he wakes up from his 6 hour sleep he is so hungry...we can not get that bottle warmer to work fast enough for his tummy. He really has a temper. Must get that from his mother! Must be the red hair.
Last week I took him to the Parent and Tot swim at our gym. He loved it. He was so happy in the water. Adam and I will take him this week again. My mom and I took him to have his pictures taken and they turned out so good.. he smiled in all of them and cost us a fortune! When I get them I will share them here. I am loving motherhood even more and I can only anticipate that it will only get better. My little man is amazing and I love all there is to love about him. He is the light of my life.
Adam has been home for the last 3 weeks. He goes back to work on Monday.. It has been nice to have him home and I will miss when he goes back. I have become to depend on his help a bit...especially when Jake throws his temper tamtrums, it's been nice to have Adam there to help me calm Jake down! I know I can do it on my own but it's just nice to have him.
I lost another pound.. I am now 154! 19 pounds to go! Yeah!

The Law suit

2007-01-04T10:15:00.000-05:00

Ok so to answer some commenters questions in regards to our pending law suit...
6 weeks after Adam and I were married he had an outpatient surgery to repair a stricture (narrowing) in his urethra. It went very very bad and he was in ICU for 2 nights,nearly died,lost function of his kidneys, was on dialysis for 3 weeks, lost a testicle was rendered impotent and infertile. We are suing the doctor. The function in his kidneys has returned and his infertility has seemed to reversed (IE Jake) but the impotence is still there and he needs to use a vacuum pump to obtain/maintain an erection. (Great fun!) So in the next year or so the suit should be coming to completion and we should have some resolution.
Our Christmas was very nice. It was fun and I can only imagine how much more fun it will be as the years progress. Our 2.5 year old niece was a scream. She really started to understand the whole Santa thing and was so funny! Jacob slept through most of the day but he was so cute anyway.
We seem to be back on track with our nights and days. Thank goodness and he is almost sleeping through his middle of the night feeding. He goes about 2 hours past. So I am getting almost 5 hours of sleep in a row at night. It is great. He is so damn cute and smiling a lot now. His gas has gone down a lot since we changed to Playtex nursers. He has bouts a few times a week instead of eveyday so it's better for him.
He was weighed at the doctor's last week and is up to 9lbs 13 ounces. Oink oink. He has grown out of his newborn clothes and it was sad for me when I packed them away. But the new 0-3 months stuff is so cute so I will be ok! LOL.
I made it 7.5 weeks without him peeing on me..and Tuesday he did it twice! Monkey.
Adam was given a new shift at work so on the 15 of January he will be working 9am-7pm! Yeah a day shift. I am very happy about that. It is a few less hours a week which means a little less money but it will be so good to have him home more.
I am taking Jake to have his pictures taken tomorrow in his Christening Romper. I tried it on him the other day and it looks so cute on him. His Christening is on the 21st of January. Adam will be being baptized that day too.
I am having a hard time staying on track with my eating. Because of the feeding schedules it seems that I am just grabbing snacks. And not very healthy snacks either...like chips and pop! I have not losed any weight in about 2 weeks. I have to buy some healthy snacks this week so that I can get back on track. I only have 23 pounds to go. We have started walking a bit more too. The weather here has been good so it's great to get out. I am taking Jake to a Mommy and Me swim on Friday so that will be fun. And my cousin bought me a Mommy and Me Yoga for Christmas so I can not wait to start that.
Anyway that is all that is new. I hope you enjoy the pictures of our little man.

Sleep at night.

2006-12-13T09:33:00.000-05:00

Well we have our nights and mixed up! LOL.
Yesterday we spent the afternoon and evening keeping a baby boy awake and feeling like the meanest mother in the whole world. But, it worked... Jacob slept 3.5 hours in a row the first stretch, woke up and ate then slept another 4 hour stretch. It was great. It had been about 2 nights since he had done that. I will have to do that again tonight and hope that after tonight it corrects itself. He is such a pleasant little man though. Even when he was so tired in the second half of the stay awake phase. He barely cried and still smiled and cooed at me. I love this child so much.
The shopping trip to the states went well. He was so good and patient with us. We had a blast. My mom and I are so good together. I treasure all our moments.
We took Jake on his first trip to Hooters on Saturday. He slept through the whole meal. He was so good.
Sunday we had our annual Chanukah dinner with my father's family. It was so great. We had such a nice time. Everyone was so happy to see Jacob again. He was smiling at my cousin. It was the sweetest thing ever. My aunt is so very smitten with him. She says she can't stop thinking about him and she misses him. It is so sweet.
Tonight Jake and I are sleeping over at my parents house because tomorrow is my mom's 1 year check up for her gastric bypass and all the people at Barix want to meet Jacob so we are going back to the states tomorrow.
Right now my son is sleeping on his Boppy pillow on my lap as I type. He is so peaceful. I don't want to move him, but I think I will because he gets a better sleep in his crib. I think I will hop back in bed so that I am rested for tonight. With the operation stay awake, Jake!
Yesterday in our efforts to keep him awake we set up his Leap Frog activity centre. He really enjoyed it and it took up about 20 minutes of time. It plays him classical music and flashes lights at him. He was pretty intent on it. He looked so cute.
I wrapped some Christmas presents yesterday too. While holding Jake in my arms. It's amazing what I have learned to do with one hand!
We got some more shopping done on Saturday we still have a few more gifts to buy. We have to get our nephew and our brother in law finished this week-end since we have to ship it to Manitoulin Island.
On Sunday we have to go to Toronto to see our laywer. Apparently he has this new hot shot lawyer that he wants to bring to our case and he wants us to meet him. Plus with the new development of Jacob we have to go over the other aspects of the case to make them stronger. Since we can't really use the fact that we can't have children now. Which is ok, becuase I would much rather have Jacob then a million dollars anyway. But, we just have to change our focus now and focus on Adam's impotence issues and the fact the he is missing a testicle. We still have a case based on that. The lawyer wants us to bring Jake but I know that if we bring him he will sleep all the way there and all the way home and then we'll be back to square one with his days and nights mixed up so I think we will leave him with my parents. That way we will not have to worry. Plus, my mom has said that they will keep him over night on the Saturday so we can get a good nights sleep. We have to get up at 6am in order to get to Toronto in time for the 11am meeting.
Anyway, there is nothing else happening. I am more in love with my son now than I was yesterday! Did not think that was possible but everyday it happens.

News from the first 4 weeks

2006-12-08T08:25:00.000-05:00

Our little man is now 4 weeks old. Tomorrow he will be one month! I can not believe how fast that went. I have enjoyed every second of every day with him. I love being his mommy. I can not think of a moment when he was not here. It's like my life started the moment he was born. My life is so complete now. It's amazing how someone so small can fill my life with so much love and happiness. Everyday he amazes me more and more. I knew I would love him, but this love I feel for him is indescribable. It touches my very soul.
He is starting to respond to us now. And smirk back at us when we talk to him. He is finding his voice and coos and goos all the time. He is filling out now too and his face is so chubby and so cute. His legs are getting ruffly and his hands are getting the nuckle dimples now too. I could just stare at him all day long. I like to look at every part of him because I just want to memorize his very being. When I put him down for his naps I count down the minutes till I get to be with him again! I also count the minutes of sleep I will get too! But, when he wakes up there has been only a handful of times where I have said to myself...just 5 more minutes of sleep, Jake! Please! but, then I remember that it's him I get to see when I walk into that nursery and that is motivation enough for me to get up.
I do not feel sleep deprived at all. tired? Yes, of coarse but it is a good tired. I feel so needed and productive. This is why I am here on this earth. Some people are here to find the cure for cancer or win the nobel prize... I am not destined for that greatness... I am here to love, nuture and help a little person grow into the man he will be. This is the most important cause I will ever fight for. I may not win the nobel prize for motherhood, but that's ok because I have won the best "NOBLE" prize in history!

I am a mother!

2006-12-04T23:02:00.000-05:00

All is well in Jakeville,
he has gained weight and is now at 7 pounds 10 ounces! Yeah boy. Almost 1 pound more than birth weight of 6 13! He is a good eater and for the most part a good sleeper. He has been a little restless the last 2 nights. Last night he had a lot of gas. It broke my heart but we only got about 2 hours sleep. Welcome to motherhood, I know. I did not feel too tired today though. We had to go to my OB to have some paperwork filled out and he did my 6 week check up and pap smear. He said all looks well. Asked me about birth control, i told him we wanted to start trying right away so we would not need any. afterall, it took us 3.5 years to have Jake! What will be will be.
Jake does have a small hole in his heart. We are told that will heal itself within a few months and that it is nothing to worry about. They will proceed with a followup heart scan at 1 year. What normally happens is that they are left with a heart murmur which our family doctor heard when we visted her last week.
I am down 7 pounds from my pre pregnancy weight. I am now about 158! Wow, I feel great.
Here are some pics of my little man. He is growing so much. I see it in his face!
Enjoy,
I will try to post more frequently.

2006-11-18T00:40:00.000-05:00

We went for our pictures today...They turned out great. Here is the man at 8 days old.
We also went to the maternal newborn clinic again today...we went on Tuesday and his weifght was down. So we went today to get a weight check since we will not be seeing the Pediatrician until Dec 01 they want to monitor how is doing. Plus we wanted to get the results of the ultrasound on his little heart they did while he was in NICU.
It did not go well....
He lost another 2 ounces and while it is not cause for major concern...he is still under the normal 10% they are concerned that Jake is not taking enough at each feeding. They think that because of his rough start he is having to work too hard to get the milk out and that he is actually burning more calories than he is taking in. They think that maybe nursing him might be too much work for him because he is too "lazy" to nurse. It was suggested to feed him breast milk, pump..feed him expressed milk then feed him formula until full. I know that once we become parents our children rule our lives, but honestly when would they like me to sleep? I was crying because I am so worried about him. The nurse said that it was not anything that I was doing or not doing it's just some babies don't have the strength or the will to nurse. I told her that at each pump session I have only been getting 1/4 ounce of milk. SO the neonataligist said ok...so just supplement with formula. Ok fine. But what they don't understand that he is a really sleepy baby. So was I. My mom said I was the same way. I would drink like an ounce or 2 of formula then fall right to sleep. So maybe Jacob is just like me. A lazy boy. I am fine. In fact I went the oppisite way... ate way too much later in life! When we left I was given these instructions....nurse baby for no more than 20 minutes total...then supplement with formula, every 3 hours pump for 10 minutes. I felt overwhelmed by that. I mean he is eating almost every three hours as it is so when will I have time to pump?
We went for pictures and all I kept thinking about was I am depriving my child. He only ate very little today and was just grazing at each feeding and he would fall asleep right in the middle. Like he always does. He went from about 11:00 this morning sncaked at the clinic for about 5 minutes at 3pm then snacked again at about 5pm and he was not screaming that he was hungry. It made me worry, that he is sick and that I am killing him slowly. We were checking out at the portrait studio and I started to cry. Adam gave me the baby and said to go into the nursing room and nurse him. so I did, afgain he just nursed for about 5 minutes per side and fell asleep. I try to wake him up when he falls asleep at the breat but he is hell bent and determined to sleep. I came to realization that I am retiring my breasts. I want to know exactly what our baby is eating. So that I can relax and I can know that he is getting enough. I don't want to be stressed out by nursing, pumping, and formual feeding because I know my little man will sense that and I want the best for him physcologically too. I refuse to feel guilty about our decision because at least this way we will know for sure that he is getting enough!
As fir the results of the ultrasound...inconclusive so we had to re-do the test today. That was stressful too. Not knowing for sure that his heart is fine. I just want to know that my baby is healthy and that I am playing a part in getting him to his optimum health.
He is such a contect little guy..but now I am convinced it's because something is seriously wrong with him. We get the results next Friday. Untill then, I will try to relax and I will enjoy every second of my baby's exsistence. I am truly greatful for him in our lives.
I think he looks healthy enough. His colour is really good so I think he is fine.

Holy Shit!

2006-11-16T21:46:00.000-05:00

On Monday I got ont he scale at my parents house and the scale read 170.9! At the end of my pregnancy I was 188. The day after Jake was born I weighed 173. Pre-pregnancy I weighed 165. Today I hopped on the scale at my parents house again and I weigh....Drum roll please.....160.6! Holy Shit! I am smaller now than before I got pregnant! I am so happy. I can not wait to tell Adam in the morning!
I have 25 pounds to lose to reach my goal of 135 pounds. I can't wait till I can exercise again. That coming from me who during her pregnancy was afraid to fart at the beginning and stopped going to the gym! I am so going back in the New Year!
Jacob is doing well. He is such a content little man. We are very lucky. He is nursing well and sleeps 3-4 hours streches at a time. I am not really tired at all. Plus, I am so in love with my son that any tiredness I may feel is taking away by the sense of euphoria I feel when I look at him. He very rarely cries and when he does he is easily appeased. Today he is 1 week old! He spent the afternoon awake and fussy! And celebrating his birthday! I really can't complain this is the first time he has been fussy for any length of time! Plus he slept well in the night so he had some pent up energy. And he is so damn cute that I could never be upset with him. Besides he just being a baby! Mister Fussy Pants has stolen my heart and the hearts of all those around him. He is a very special little boy!

My Birth Story

2006-11-15T23:12:00.000-05:00

Woke up at 730 with a huge pain in my belly. It felt like I had gas pains and the top of my belly was hard and detended. I got up and tried to lay on the couch but it was not helping. I waited until about 10 then I woke Adam up and asked him to please rub my back to move the gas...lI farted a couple times and had a BM but nothing moved it. I tried to eat. Felt nausea. At about 1:00 I had Adam call OB triage...He explained the pains and they said to come in. I was not having any contractions at this time. On the way to the hospital I started to feel some period cramps in my lower belly and there was some lower back pain. We got to the hospital and they hooked me up to the moniters. By this time I was feeling more cramping and they were registering on the moniter. Nothing really painful though, just the same pain from the hard belly. They let me lay there for about 1 hour then a nurse came to check my dialation... she could not get a good feel and she nearly killed me trying! So another nurse came and she tried had better luck and said I was about 2cm and 80% dialated. They called to OB, he came down and said looks like we're having a baby. They hooked up my IV...had to try twice...with the antibiotics and the saline. And a room was found for me. I walked to the room with Adam and shortly after my parents showed up. I took a walk with my mom for about 15 minutes to bring on the contractions. At this point they were still nothing more than period cramps. It is now about 6:00pm. We came back to the room and I told the nurse that I wanted to use the labour tub and she said ok once Dr Mundle comes in and breaks my water she will get it ready for me. The breaking of the water hurt like a son of a bitch. I thought the doctor was looking for my tonsils. The water broke...holy shit there is so much water in there. It ran up and down my back and was so hot. I am so glad it did not break at home. I would have freaked out. It was discovered at this point that Jacob was very high up because if he would have been lower the water would have gushed but not quite like it did. They also found meconium in the water and thus the bath was cancelled and some extra provisions were put in place. An OR was booked in case of emergency and we were told that the NICU would be present at the birth and that quite possibly he would be taken to the NICU. Scary, but we knew that would be for his own good. I was not allowed to get up and walk now because they did not want the baby to have any more exsposure to the meconium. By now the contractions were killing me. Not that they were so painful but, they were back to back with no reprieve in the middle. Adam and I were breathing through them very well but it was too much. I ordered the epidural at 645 and it arrived at 8pm. That was a long hour and a half let me tell you! LOL. The epidural did not hurt as much I thought it was going to the worst part was the freezing needle they put in sent a shock up my spine that I was not expecting. When he put the epidural needle I did not feel that then it felt like cool water running up my back and across my shoulders then down my back and accross my hips. They warned me that I might feel a funny bone hitting sensation right after that but I did not feel that. The relief came almost instantly...except for some reason it only lessened the pain on my right side and I could still feel labour pains there. At 830 the OB on call came in and checked my dialation.. I was at 7. Thank God. He then discovered that the baby was in a tranverse position so the nurse had all these crazy positions to put me in to move the baby into proper positioning. She then said that the doctor ordered Petocin drip and I asked her why? When I was already so far along? She said sometimes it helps with the pushing. I asked her to tell the DR that at this point I was not ready for the petocin because I still feel the pains on my right side and I knew that the petocin would make the pains worse and I was not prepared for that yet. She said she would top off my epidural and see if the right side pains went away. They did not. But they did lessen once again. An hour later she checked me and I was at 10CM and fully dialated. I think this was about 11pm. Because the baby who had moved into postion by now was still very high up I did not have the urge to push she turned down the lights and I had a little nap. At Midnight I started feeling the urge to push so we started. Adam at my right side, my mom at my left and my dad behind me to my left. The nurse who was very crafty was at the bottom of the bed adminstering a perinium message to loosen the skin and get it ready to be stretched. At each contraction I pushed to the count of 10 with my mom and Adam counting it out for me. I pushed for an hour then the baby came passed the pelvic bone and the nurse called for the doctor because I would need an eposiotomy because I still had part of my Hyman. That was quite funny to us! So now we say Jacob is the Messiah and I had an immaculate conception and birth! The doctor was busy dleivering another baby so we just continued to push. I say we because Adam and my mom said they were pushing righ along with me! The nurse said that getting the head to crown was the toughest part and asked me if I wanted the petocin at this point to help the uterus help him down. I said yes, and boy did that speed things up...the next thing I knew the head was out... the dr was no where in sight and I felt so much pressure and the nurse is yelling, I need a dr in here stat...where the hell is he? There were at this point 3 other nurses and the respiroligist in the room waiting for him to be born. They were afraid to have him out that far because they did not want him to inhale the poop. So the nurse was holding his head in. I was screaming I have to push and they were screaming you can't just wait...My mom had just put ice chips in my mouth and I started to hyperventalate and was afraid I would swallow the ice so I just yelled sorry guys and spit those babies across the room...one NICU nurse had to duck...and the ice flew into the wall at the other end of the room the right into the sink. Looking back it was quite comical and has given my family lots to laugh about. So finally the Dr gets there they tell me to give a 1/2 push and the head is allowed to come out. The Dr starts suctioning right away and then I am instructed to give another good push and out popped the shoulders. The next thing I know there is this little man laying on my belly and he is the most beautiful thing I have seen in my life. My mom is weeping, Adam is weeping, my dad is weeping, but I am just in awe staring at him. He could not stay for long though they had to get him to the warmer and access him. Even though he scored 9 on the apgar they said that he had to go to the NICU. They brought him over to me and I kissed his little head and said happy birthday Jacob, I love you. And he, ADam and my dad were whisked away to the NICU. The Dr delivered the placenta and then the fun began... because he could not make it for the epsiotomy I tore from the inside and he had an hour worth of mending to do. All I have to say is thank God for the Epidural or I would have been in agony. The Dr said that without the epidural he may have had to take me to the or to fix me. Ok so that's it. That's the story about how I became a mommy at 109am on Thursday November 09 to my 6 pound 13 ounce 21 inch angel.
Once they sewed me up then I ate some toast... the best toast ever because I was so hungry. And they gave me a sponge bath.. Adam and my dad came back and said the Baby was doing well, that his colour was a lot better and he was on some oxygen. Adam took my mom to see him and my dad was telling me all about the conversation he had with the baby!
At 4am I was put in a wheelchair and taken down to the NICU to meet my new son officially. We nursed for the first time. And as unsure about it as I was, it really did just come naturally Jacob took to it right away. So far we are still doing well and he is eating well. I enjoy it...mostly. But it does drain me and sometimes when I am really tired I wish someone else could take over. But then I see the way my son looks at me and I realize this is something that only he can share and then I love it all over again.
We could go to the NICU 24 hours a day so we went whenever we wanted and we could hold him right away which was great. On Thursday morning it was discovered that Jacob's right lung was holding too much air...(called a nemuthorax, I think) and because it was so inflated it was pushing his heart over to the side too much and causing stress on the heart. They had to stick a needle into his chest and remove some of the air and then hoped that the heart would move over and the arhythmia would improve on its own. Once they did the procedure the lung stayed the way it should be then we just had to watch his heart rate. Once Jacob reached the 24 hour old mark he turned right around and was like a new kid. That was a relief for sure! Thursday night mother love hit me and lay in my bad and just wept with love and gratitude for the special little gift we had been given.
On Friday afternoon he was released from the NICU to our room and it was great to have with us.
On Saturday we came home as a family. After all these years we finally have our angel.
It was the best experience of my life.
Here is a picture.

He's Here!!!

2006-11-12T15:14:00.000-05:00

Jacob Adam Warren graced the world on November 9th, at 1:09am he weighed 6lbs 13ounces and is 21 inches long. He is perfect. I will update with the birth stroy...But it was a very easy time. I took the epi-dural! Yeah for drugs. And of coarse, pictures... LOL.

C'Mon Jake

2006-11-07T12:58:00.000-05:00

Don't you think today would be good day for a birthday party? I sure do. It's raining like a mother here and what a great day to be stuck in a hospital. I think so. So Cmon Jacob...make your mother happy! LOL.
I did sleep well last night though. I went to bed at about midnight and watched Annie.. Then I fell asleep at about 1sh and slept till 8ish. Then I was so uncomfortable I came out and slept for 2 more hours on the couch.
I called the caterer and am planning Jacob's Christening! LOL. I am waiting for the minister to call me back!
I called unemployment insurance and asked them some questions about my claim. In Canada we are lucky to be paid for 1 year maternity leave. 55% of our wages.
I also called the bank about our maortgage being paid because I have been off for 3 months sick and we have disability insurance for such a thing. We'll see any little bit helps!
I am trying to get things in order. In case the little man decides he wants to meet me as much as I want him. LOL.
I'll keep you posted.

Week 39 OB Appointment

2006-11-06T15:48:00.000-05:00

All is well. Nothing is indicating that we are near the end other than that we have 7 days till the due date. We had an ultrasound today and it showed that the fluid is still fine. I thought I was having some leakage but it must have been urine!
I see Dr Mundle again next Wednesday. If Jacob has not celebrated his birthday by then I may talk to to the dr about induction for the following week. We'll see. He said that at this point he's ready when I'm ready. But I said that I wanted to wait and let nature take its coarse at this point. As much as I want him here... I want him safe and also I would really like to experience the whole labour thing from the beginning. I think it is going to be neat. I can not wait.
I will continue to try to post daily...to keep you updated. Its not like I have a lot to do now anyway! LOL.

We're Still Here

2006-11-05T11:18:00.000-05:00

All is the same. Nothing has changed. Except that Jacob has been issued his official eviction notice! I am so ready for him to be here. I am having more trouble sleeping and I feel so uncomfortable in bed. Plus I just want to meet him and hold him.
I see our OB tomorrow. 8 days left. Yes, I am counting! LOL.
We had our maternity pictures Friday and they turned out nice. I will upload some once I scan them.
Adam's aunt and 2 cousins were here this weekend and we went shopping in the states. I made Adam come with us so he could drive because I knew I would be too tired. I am very glad that I made that decision I was beat. It was such a fun day though.
I have been making a lot of bad food choices this past week. I am scared to step on that scale tomorrow! Oh well just a week left. I should be fine. As long as I can get back on track once he's here and eat well while nursing. That will be my challenge. I know that what I eat will effect Jacob so I need to visit a dietician to make sure that both our nutritional needs are being met. I also have to drink a lot more fluids. I am not drinking near enough fluids. I can feel it. That could be a reason for my bad food choices too. I have to do better.
Anyway, I will keep you posted for sure. If I can't get to a computer.. I will have either Adam or my mom update for you. You will all be the first to know once little man is here.
Thank you for your care and concern...

Week 38 Check Up

2006-10-30T22:40:00.000-05:00

It went well.. Jake is about 7lbs 1oz at this point. His head is about 9cm and all looks good with my fluids. Dr M specualtes we should start seeing things happen within 7-10 days. Wow, that's pretty exciting.
Last night we were timing some contractions at about 230 in the morning. They were about 4-5 minutes apart and lasted 40 seconds. It went on like that for about an hour then I finally fell asleep and they ended. Dr M said that's normal and that we'll start experiencing more of that in the next little while and then one time.. they just won't stop! LOL. I was not in a lot of pain, just discomfort and pressure. Some shooting pains were running down my legs which was the most unpleasant part and it took my breath away. I had to to remind myself to breath and relax because I was tensing up somewhat. I was scared though Adam was giddy as a school girl thinking it was time. I was not scared before last night now I am a little nervous about the labour. I hope I have good luck like my mom with me... 3 hours! God willing.
I tested positive for Strep B...IV for me at Labour. I gained nothing so I am still up only 20 pounds and Jakey's heart rate was 140!
Can't wait for Friday...we go for our Maternity pictures. That will be fun.

My Mother in Law

2006-10-28T00:44:00.000-04:00

In 2004 my mother in law passed away. She had lung cancer. I miss her everyday and as the birth of our son fastly approaches I miss her more. She was the type of woman who had a strength about her that was admirable. She was quiet but had the best laugh. I miss her laugh. She was not at all your typical mother in law. She never medaled and even when her opinion was asked she would just say whatever you think. She had a great sense of humour and would sit in a crowd observing what was going on then all of a sudden she would come out with these one liners that would crack us up so much when we least expected it. She loved to go for rides and she would go out ot dusk with the hopes that she would see some deer. Her drives were fondly called her deer hunts. I remember this one ride we were on about 3 months before she died. There was her driving, Adam riding shot gun, my nephew, Adam's aunt, and I in the middle seat and my sister in law was riding on a stool in the very back of the van! It was quite a sight. Well my mother in law liked to drive fast... a characteristic her son and daughter have inherited, and this day was no exception to that. However, she was still looking for her deer so she was having a hard time staying on the road and my sister in law was having a hard time staying on her stool. At this point my sister in law leans over the seat and whispers to myself and our aunt... "Mom, knows she dying so she's trying to take us with her!" Well we laughed so hard. Then about 5 minutes later my mother in law turns to her daughter and says..."A, If you're afraid of falling out why don't you just trade places with Tammy!" Well then we laughed even harder. I knew at that point that I was an accepted part of the family. A few months later my mother in law and I went for a ride around the island just the two of us. We talked about life, and kids and how Adam hoped to be pregnant soon and how I was sad that she would miss it. I told her that if we would have a son we would call him Jacob and she said the name out loud and then smiled and said "Ilike that name." Then we just sat in silence and watched some fireworks that were going off in the village where Adam grew up. We did not have to say anymore to eachother. We were at peace in the knowledge that we loved and respected eachother. That was the last time I saw before she died. I was not there when she died. I thought she needed to have that moment with her son and daughter soley and they did not need me there. Plus she had said that she did not want any sadness and boo-hooing around her and I could not even speak to her on the phone near the end without breaking down so I would have been kicked out before I even walked over the treshold of the hospital room. Even our brother in law could not be there because he is a mush too. My husband and his sister are stronger than that and could, to honour their mom hold back their tears. I respect them for that. Especially knowing them both I know how hard that must have been for them. I know that once she took her last breath, they both lost it. Understandably so. Anyway my point to this post was to say that today I found a picture of my mother in law that had her sister and 2 nieces in it and I took it to the photo lab and had them cropped out and made a nice picture of just her. I have framed it and put it in the baby's room. I think it is important for Jacob to know who she is and just how wonderful a woman she was. I feel cheated for Jacob that he will not know her.
Our nephew, who has his grandma's personality was playing with a friend of his in the living room of my sister in law's home. Behind the boys was a collage picture that our aunt had made for her with all pictures of her mother. Our nephew (who was about 5.5 years old at the time) turns to his friend and points to the picture on the wall behind them and says to him "You see those pictures?, they're all my dead grandma!" My sister in law just about died laughing. So I think it's important for Jacob to have a picture of his "dead grandmother" too. I think she would like that too.
I know that she watching over us right now as she has since she died. But, I miss her so much.
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Week 37 OB appointment

2006-10-24T18:52:00.000-04:00

All is still well in utero! Jacob is doing fine. We have no issues and no reason to believe he is coming anytime soon.
Dr estimates he weighs about 6 pounds and will be about 8 pounds at birth. Not huge but healthy. That's all I can ask for.
He answered my questions and I have decided that for labour... I want to labour in the tub, use the birthing ball and if the pain gets really bad I will use the laughing gas. Then once it's time for delivery I want to use the squatting bar because it then the gravity will work with me... I hope. This is my birth plan. I know that could change at a moments notice and I am prepared for that but if all goes well than that is what will be. Epidural is only to be used if my head starts to spin and I puke pea soup. LOL.
Next week I have my last ultrasound, I can't wait to see him again.
3 weeks left till we meet him. Yeah!

Prenatal Classes

2006-10-22T00:11:00.000-04:00

Our prenatal classes went well. They were very infomative. Now I have a lot to think about how I want my birth plan to go! There are a few options I would really like to consider. I want to go over everything in my head before I decided though.
I can not wait to see Dr Mundle on Monday.. Now I have a lot of questions to ask him.
22 Days left till Jacob is scheduled to arrive. I am so excited to meet our new son. I can not believe it. It seems so unreal.
On the 2 of November I am going to a breastfeeding clinic at the hospital. I am excited to learn some tips about it. I fear how I will feel while nursing the baby. I am not sure that I will be able to nurse him...but I think that for sure I will be pumping. I want him to have the benefits of the breast milk. I am waiting to see how I feel when I put him to my breast. As of right now, the thought of it makes me feel a little bit uncomfortable.
Adam worked on staining the closet doors so tomorrow he will have to varathane them and then we just have to put the roller shade and the valance up and the room will be completed. It looks great right now, so once those finishing touches are on I know it will be even better.
My mom and I went shopping in the states on Friday. We had such a great time. I found a babies' First Chanukah Bib for Jake. I was so happy I found that. We celebrate Chanukah with my dad's family every year so now Jake has a little something to wear to commemorate the event. I did not show my dad so he will be come excited when he sees it. We have about 15 people come over to our house and we make meatballs and knishes. Yummy. It is a meal our Bubbie used to make so we make it in honour of her. It really is not a traditional Chanukah meal but it has special meaning to all of us and the most important thing is that we are all together.
This week we are going to pack our labour kit and my hospital bag! The instructor told us we should have had it packed 6 weeks prior to birth.. Oops we're a little late. LOL.
We were suppose to go out to celebrate our anniversary this weekend, but after the prenatal class today we were so tired that we just decided to come home and I had a nap. I think Adam was dissappointed, but he understood that I needed to sleep. I was getting very twisty footed and when I get that way... I need to sleep! I felt better once I woke up... but, we decided we did not want to go out after that. So we rented a movie on the dish.
I have a baby shower to go to tomorrow. It is for a girl that grew up on the same street as me. She is a little younger than I am so we weren't friends but now that we are due so close together it's kind of cool. We are going to get the babies together and have some play dates. She did not find out the sex of her baby so my mom and went to Carter's and we bought her some really cute green, yellow and peach coloured clothes. They are so cute. I love the shades of the colours so much.
So that's all that's new.
Will keep you posted on my appointment with Dr Mundle Monday!

Gifts for the Little Man

2006-10-17T12:16:00.000-04:00

Yesterday Jacob recieved this outfit from our good cyber friend...Brooke and her little baby girl. Over at wishes and dreams
It is the cutest little thing I have seen and I can just imagine what a little man he will look like in it. So grown up! It is his first designer outfit. It is from Ralph Lauren. Excuse me, our son has nicer clothes than we do! And he's not even here yet! LOL.
Here is a shot of it for you to see. It does not do it justice though.
Thank-you Brooke and baby girl.

Week 36 appointment

2006-10-16T20:00:00.000-04:00

My OB appointment went well. Jacob is doing well, his heart rate was 150. He, once again kept rolling over when the Dr would try to monitor him...Took him about 3 times to finally get a reading! What a kid. I used to do the same thing in utro! Like mother like son. I lost a pound so now I am up 20 pounds total. We have about 4 weeks left. I can not wait to meet my new son. Dr Mundle said that I am measuring right on target for our due date. So we'll see. I also had the Strep B swap today so we'll see how that comes back. I start going once a week now. I see him again on Monday.
I am having a hard time getting comfortable when trying to sleep. I ussually have to fall asleep on the couch for a few hours, then I crawl into the bed and I am fine. Luckily, I am not working since sometimes I don't get to sleep till 3 in the morning. I am lucky that I can sleep till 11 am at least.
Jacob is moving around a lot and I love feeling him. He seems to favour bouncing on my bladder and sending some sharp nerve shooting right through my vagina and down the tops of my legs. That is they only thing that really hurts. It takes my breath away and makes me cringe. The Braxton Hicks come everyday now, but are very sporadic and they do not hurt..they just make my belly feel very tight and a little crampy. When I walk around a lot I feel little period cramps but they go away once I sit down and relax. Dr Mundle says they are normal.
I am getting so excited.
We have our hospital tour on Wednesday and then we start out prenatal course on Friday night and it goes into Saturday all day. We are both looking forward to that. I think it will be nice to meet some other expectant parents and to learn about what to expect. Our hospital just put in a jacuzzi tub for labouring in so I am excited to learn more about that.
Also this week... on Thursday, we will celebrate our 4th wedding anniversary. Wow, 4 years already. It has been 4 years of a lot of strife but this last year has made up for all the crap. We are so happy and all of our dreams are coming true. This is the best year of our lives. I am so happy in my life right now. I can not wait for this new chapter in our lives. The parenthood chapter. We have been waiting our whole lives for this!

Here are some more pictures of the nursery! I am so proud of how it turned out.

Sweet Dreams

2006-10-16T01:21:00.000-04:00

Allelujia! The nursery is complete! Oh My Gosh I am so in love with it. I can not wait till Jacob is here and sleeping in it. 28 more days. Wow, in a way that seems so close but yet so far. It is so real now...we can almost taste it.
Here are some pictures of the room and my belly...I finally look pregnant..not like I am about to give birth in 28 days mind you...but at least I look pregnant.

Painting

2006-10-04T18:41:00.000-04:00

The painting in the nursery went well. We put the new colour on the wall the green/blue shade and it looked like shit with the what we thought was beige looked apricot next to the new colour. So we had to run out and buy new paint that matched the pillow. At first when we were putting the new beige on it looked like it was going to dry with an olive green hue. We were paniking. But then once we put the stencil up it started to change again. Now we think it looks great. I think that once we have the trim, the crib, and the rest of the bedding.. (Which by the way is on sale this month and we have to go to the states to buy it next week.)it will pull everything together. I can not wait to see it once it's complete. I moved a lot of things into his closet. But I still have a lot of laundry to do. We need to get the dresser and Adam's sister still has not sent us the gift card for it which means that we have to assume that we will be responsible for paying for the whole thing. Which also means that we have wait till after we buy the bedding to be able to afford the dresser. I am getting nervous that we are running out of time. I really hope Jake does not come early. I had a big talk with him last night about how important it is for him to not come early. LOL. I hope he took it to heart. Anyway Adam is working on the trim tomorrow and he has a long weekend this weekend since it is Thanksgiving.. so we may even have a crib in the room by the end of this weekend. I can not wait to see that.
We had another ultrasound on Monday. It went well. Jacob is growing fast and is estimated to weigh 5 pounds. He is a bit heavy but still doing well. I gained 3 pounds in 2 weeks. I have to keep reminding myself that it's ok. I am so hungry all the time lately. I know he will grow a lot in the last weeks so its normal. We have about 5.5 weeks left. I can not wait to meet him. I see the Dr again in 2 weeks. Then we have our last ultrasound on the 30th of October. Then it's just a wait and see from there.
On Sunday when my mom and I were working on the stencil I was having some Braxton Hicks contractions. It was the weirdest feeling. I can't say the hurt really just felt like a lot of pressure at the top of my uterus. They lasted about 40 minutes then went away. I am also getting these weird cramps at the tops of my legs. It's like the muscles are tensing up when I walk and it makes me feel like I might fall down. I have lost my balance a couple times when it happens but I have not fallen. I was having them at the same time as the Braxton Hicks and that was fun! I have also been having some fluid leakage but not a whole lot just enough to more than dampen my undies. Dr Mundle said we will just have to watch it that it does not get any worse. My cervix looked really good at the ultrasound so there was no concerns with that.
So really all is well I am just freaking out that we will not have everything done in time for Mr Magoo's birth. I am such a planner and my husband is a fly by the seat of his pants guy! So we clash a lot when things have to get done. I ussually end up having a melt down then he gets scared and does some work to shut me up! LOL.

Stroller

2006-09-26T19:37:00.000-04:00

We went to Babies R Us on Sunday and returned some items we received two of from the shower and we put the money towards our stroller and infant car seat. It worked out great because with the gift cards we also received we were able to not have to spend any of our own money to buy it.
We ended up choosing a different model than we had registered for because there was this really great sales rep working who explained the benefits and features of the Quattro Stroller and even though it was more money we liked the features better and the colour too. The other one was blue and green plaid but this one is black and tan and matches the van a lot better. I am glad that we did not receive the stroller we registered for because then we would not have had the opportunity to buy this one. Everything works out for a good reason.
Today Adam put it together and it looks so good in our dining room! LOL. I can not wait to use it with Jacob. 7 Weeks to go.
Also we moved the computer and the curio cabinet over so that we would have more room for Jake's swing and his playtime toys. The dining room looks a lot bigger and then once we move our big chair to my parents then we will have even more room for him. We are getting a glider with ottoman and it will take up less room. Adam will be putting the final coat of drywall in the nursery tomorrow then he can sand it on Thursday and he will be making the lines so that my mom and I can paint the second colour on the wall. So the painting will be done on Friday and we will be putting the stencil up on Saturday. Hopefully then we can put the chair rail up on Sunday and then my dad and Adam can build the crib. Oh I can not wait to see the crib in that room. It will be so much more real then. It will be hard to keep me out of there I will be so busy day dreaming. Except that there is a lot more work to be done in the house in the next 7 weeks so I will be busy completed that stuff! I want to paint the living room and the dining room. But I think Adam will have to paint the dining room because we have cathedral ceilings and I am too short! Plus I should not be stretching near that much. Luckily my mom is a lot more healthy now and she can also do a lot of the work! LOL. She said she did not mind and she actually enjoys painting. The rooms themselves are not that big so I know it will take long to paint them. Then we just have to put up the new doors in our room, the bathroom and the baby's room and we have to put up the new counter we bought for the breakfast nook in the kitchen and we will be pretty much finished the reno's we have planed for the house. Our bedroom paint can wait for the New Year! That too has cathedral ceilings and is the biggest room in the whole house! I will need Adam's help with that one for sure. Last year he had shut down in March so this year if he has shut down then we can paint the bedroom at that time. Then I think Adam wants to put the house up for sale. All this work for someone else to enjoy! But I think the house would sell better with fresh paint anyway so its worth it. I am not sure if we will be ready to move at that time, but in our neighborhood... we live on the lake we have to put it up for sale in the spring/summer because fall/winter it gets too dreary out here. So we'll see if we do not put it up this Spring coming then we would have to wait untill the Spring of 08. It will pretty much depend on if we are pregnant in the Spring. We could not have 2 babies in this house. If we are not pregnant by the Spring then we will probably wait to sell it. I would like to be pregnant right away but who knows what God has in store for us.
Anyway enough of me going on and on once I have some progress pictures I will update.

Weight Gain

2006-09-20T11:26:00.000-04:00

I had my OB appointment yesterday... Week 32. All is well. Nothing new. Heartrate for Jake is great very steady. I told him I was having some cramping in my lower abdomen, but he didn't seem concerned. I gained 5 pounds! OMG. It's hard to see the scale going up that much in 2 weeks. I know that at this point it is going to go up faster but I almost had a heart attack! I know that 1 pound of that is probably baby, but 4 pounds of fat? I am at a gain of 19 pounds now. I was hoping to only gain 25 pounds total. I am going to get out and walk everyday now to try to keep the gain in check.
There are about 7 weeks left before our due date and with Jake gaining 1/2 pound a week now. I anticipate gaining another 5 pounds. That is what I am prepared for! Anything more than that I just might panic. LOL. Ok so I know I sound like an ass but I have come so far and don't want to jeopardize my success. I am happy that we became pregnant and that Jacob will be home to us in less than 2 months I never thought that would happen, but I want to be able to get to my healthy weight. The fact that Jacob is being born when the winter is starting makes it hard to go for walks, but my mom and I will be going to the mall a few times a week for exercise and I want to get a baby and mommy yoga tape so that I can work out with Jacob. Once the spring rolls around it will be great. But, again I do not want to rush my little man's life away.. He's not even here yet, and I want to enjoy every minute of his littleness. They grow so fast.

Our Shower

2006-09-18T15:32:00.000-04:00

Yesterday was our shower. It was so nice to see everybody there. We had about 50 people so it was just the right size. We recieved so many nice gifts and everyone was just so genuinely happy for us. It really was the right mix of people and the people who love us so much. I felt a lot of love in the room. Of coarse there were some people who love us a lot who could not be there and they were missed. But there has been some crap going on lately that made me question some peoples presence in my life. Those are the people that were not missed.
We just a have a few things to purchase now.. not too much. We will work on finishing the nursery before we worry about what else needs to be purchased. Right now Jake's room is full of gifts and there is very little room to move around the floor! It looks like a baby store. He is a very lucky boy to have so many people love him already.
We sure do have a lot of laundry to do this week. But it will be so cute to really look at the clothes again.
We have just 7 weeks till his due date! OMG I can not believe it. That is so amazing.
Last night as I was writing out the thank-you notes for all the lovely goodies we recieved, my right breast leaked milk! It was the weirdest thing. I could feel that my breast was wet and when I looked down I noticed that my nightgown was also wet. When I squeezed my nipple a little bit more liquid came out. It has not done it since and it was just that one breat so far but it was quite funny!
Our friends that we met on our cruise came for the shower. They live in Cincinnatti and they drove up on Friday night and spent the week-end with us. It was so nice to see them. I miss them now that they have left for home! They just had a little boy 7 months ago and let me tell you... He is the sweetest little guy ever. I fell in love with him. He is so pleasant and happy. I hope Jacob took notes while that little man was here. It was such a pleasure to be with him. And our floor looked so good with a baby sitting/laying on it. I loved seeing that. I can't wait till He and Jacob get to be at an age where they can really interact with one another. It is so amazing to be sharing parenthood with them. They suffered with fertility too so we never thought this would happen for us. It's just such a nice surprise that it happened to us both so close together. They truly are great friends to us. It's just too bad they live so far away!

Love at First Sight

2006-09-10T22:47:00.000-04:00

I fell in love this weekend. With my sweet little baby boy! Oh he is just so beautiful. We went for the second half of our 3D ultrasound. It was amazing to see how much he has changed in just under 8 weeks. He has filled out so much. I can not wait to meet him in person. He is just an angel.
Here see for yourself!
I put the one from 22 weeks first so you can compare.

Tales from the Nursery

2006-09-03T19:12:00.000-04:00

Well it's official.. We have begun the work on the nursery. It is kind of scary. He is 2.5 months away from being here and sometimes I just don't feel ready. Emotionally that is. I have waited for this forever and now that it is here I find myself freaking out sometimes. Like I really question whether or not I will be able to handle everything. I thinks that normal though since most of friends have told me they went through that too. And the nursery.... well we did or should I say Adam and my dad did (credit where credit is due) a lot of work this week-end, but it just feels like there is so much more to do. I would like everything completed before the shower which is 2 weeks away from today. I can not believe that it is so close already. I am getting very excited about it. I know that the stencil I ordered for the top of the wall will not be in until the shower because I had to order it from the states and the I had it shipped to one of the girls that is coming to the shower so she will bring it with her. So I know for sure that will not be done till after. I am ok with that since I had to fight for that border and have it custom made for Jacob's room. The bedding we registered for did not come with border. On the bedding there is a phrase that reads "Sweet Dreams Baby Bear" So the stencil I bought has theat text in the same font as on the bedding. I will be repeating that phrase at the top of the wall around the room. The top of the walls will be a tan colour the bottom a light sage green and the writing will be a deeper shade of the sage green. Then in the centre we will have a wood chair rail going around the room. I think it will look really nice. I can not wait to see it completed. Our dresser...we finally found it at WalMart and it matches the crib even better than the dresser that went with the crib goes. As wierd as that seems. Adam spoke to his sister and she and their father going to be sending us a gift card to go towards the purchase of the dresser. I don't mean to be greedy, but I hope they send it soon so that we can get it built and in the room and I can organize Jake's closet. The sooner I can do that the better! So Adam managed to knock out the wall in the closet this weekend so that the opening in the closet is now 4 feet long...instead of just over 2 feet. The closet itself is 5 feet long so now we have access to the whole thing when we open the brand new wood closet doors he also installed. We bought a really neat closet organizer too that will go in tomorrow. In December we had new windows installed in the house and the "nursery" got a smaller window installed so the window company had to fill in some drywall so Adam also statred mudding the area where they filled in the hole. He has another couple coats of that to do before the wall will be ready to paint. Once I get my insurnace money....for having to go off work for sick... then we will go buy the paint and my mom and I can start painting. Once the painting is done...the crib will be ready to be put together. I can not wait to see a crib in that room. We have been dreaming of that for 4 years now... Ever since we moved in we have been referring to that room as the nursery with very little hope. Now that hope has turned into a reality! WOW. When my father in law came into our house the 1st and only time that was the first thing he asked Adam, "where's the room my granchildren will sleep" Adam showed him... and he said ok "that's all I need to see!" Our families are baby crazy what can I say!
Yesterday my mom and her sisters and my cousin and I honoured my granny's 6 year anniversary of her death. We went to dinner and to church and then went back to my aunt's house to visit. I miss my granny so much. I was very close to her and she would be sp excited right now about our baby being born. Anyway, my aunts and my cousin and my uncle surprised me with some gifts for Jacob. It was so thoughtful of them. They each gave us an outfit. My one aunt... she gave us a Winne the Pooh sleeper and an Ocean Wonder daiper shirt.. She loves anything to do with fish! She's a Pisces and fish are her favourite. So anytime we receive something with fish on it we know its from Aunt Pat. My unlce is a fisherman so he gave us an outfit that has a boat on it and says little captain with a couple fish on it. My cousin, who is more like a sister to me gave us a blue outfit with a matching bib that has a bear in an airplane and it says Little Guy on the go! So cute. My little angel neice gave us a little sleeper that is beige with three patches on it one has a bear the other a duck and the last one another animal. It looks so cozy. My last aunt... she gave us an overall set that is blue and yellow striped and has a duck on it. Then the bib she bought to go with it has the same colours and a duck and the little diuck squeeks. It is so adorable! I swear this baby is going to have so many clothes... actually he really already does. But he will be so well dressed. I can not wait to see him in his new outfits. There will be lots of pictures taken of him that's for sure. Also on Friday one of our friends that can not make it to the shower stopped by and gave us about 6 outfits for him. They are all little sleepers and they look so cute and cuddly! We really are very lucky we have so many people in our lives who love us so much. We have some quality people in our lives.

1 Year Anniversary!

2006-08-25T22:24:00.000-04:00

Yesterday, aside from turning 31 (yeah)I celebrated my 1 year anniversary of my Gastric Bypass surgery. This has been the best year of my life. I was so scared of the life changes I was going to be making. But I have to say that the changes have actually made me! They have come so natural to me. I can remember a time when my life choices were any different! I miss some of the food I can no longer eat.. Mainly chocolate milk, but I am living. And that is the optimum word. LIVING....Last year I was just exsisting. I can not believe the change in my life since having my surgery. The most important is Jake. I would not be pregnant right now if I had not had the surgery. I am so happy Adam and I both had this done. Our lives are so much more fulfilled.

Birthday Picture

2006-08-21T21:16:00.000-04:00

Sunday we had my family and some friends over to celebrate my 31st birthday.. It was such a nice day and we got really good use of our new porch. The bathroom was finished just in the nick of time...at 2pm and it looks great! I love the new vanity.
My friend took a picture of me so I thought I would include it since it's better than the one I took the other day!
Adam gave me the sweetest ring for my birthday. It has November's birthstone and three diamonds on the side. I just love the setting. It is so pretty. It is such a sentimental gift. I am a very lucky girl.

Pictures

2006-08-15T14:28:00.000-04:00

Here are some pictures... me and my "belly" Jake's ultrasound pics will be added once I scan them. Sorry. But at least you have these!
Enjoy!

Week 27 ultrasound

2006-08-14T09:58:00.000-04:00

We had our week 27 ultrasound and aside from the tech running 1.5 hours behind and the building's air conditioner being out of order it was an awesome experience. I will down load the pictures for you this week, but I have to get them scanned and on a disk before that happens. LOL.
Jacob is doing really well and is weighing in thus far at 2lbs 4oz. Right on target they say! His body is in great shape. We saw some really good shots of his penis so we are very sure he isgoing to be born, Jacob! While the tech, who by the way, was awesome and well worth the wait and the heat was taking the images he noticed that Jacob's bladder was full. So he went over to his penis and then turned some infra red heat sensor light on and a few seconds later Jacob pee'd and we got to watch it on the screen. The liquid turned red and blue and it looked just like fireworks coming out of his penis. It was the neates thing ever.
I saw Dr Mundle the next day and explained to him that I was still very tired and that working 4 hour days was not working well for neither me nor the girls in my department so he took me off full time. Thank God! So I am done from now till next year! And then I may not be going back either, depends if I am pregnant again or not or if I take in a child and provided child care for them. I really hope I do not have to return to work. But I am not going to worry about it right now I am just going to enjoy my pregnancy and then my new life with Jacob. Which I can not wait for.
Yesterday marked my 6 month mark and that means...holy shit, I only have 3 months left till my due date! This has gone by so fast. I can not believe it. My shower is just over a month away. I can remember when my mom booked it in April and me freaking out thinking what if something happens, then I have one more day to try to deal with not being able to celebrate. But alas God has spared us any bad things thus far so I count my lucky stars and thank him daily. We have been so very blessed.
Yesterday, Jacob was very active you could see him moving outside my body and my mom, Adam and my dad spent about 20 minutes watching the show. The baby was very funny and everytime one of them would tap on my belly he would respond by tapping back at them. It was quite comical! I love that he is so active. My mother said she did not start seeing my move until closer to 7.5 months. But keep in mind that at birth I was only 4lbs 11oz so as it stands right now Jacob is already half my birth weight. It was a lot of fun anyway.
I guess that's all my news right now. I will be taking some belly shots today.. I promise and I will get those ultrasound pictures up too.

Birth Weights

2006-08-08T17:36:00.000-04:00

It's not that I was upset that I thought my family thought I looked big! It's that I don't want to push out a huge child!! My one cousin jokingly put 18 pounds and I said he better change that because there was no way that I wanted to push out even a baby that was 8 pounds! So he changed it to 8 pounds. What a brat!
I have only gained 8 pounds so I am not too worried about getting it off after babboo gets here. I know that most of what I have gained is baby weight so far so I am happy about that. I just wish my belly would pop more. Come on Jacob and pop me out! I can't wait!

As the World Turns

2006-08-07T12:39:00.000-04:00

Yesterday we celebrated my mom's birthday and our whole family was there. We started a baby pool with everyone. It was fun to see everyone's prediction. We just guesses birth date, weight and length. Some of my family was really mean and guessed really high weights! I thought they all liked me!
Jacob has been moving around a lot more. It must have been the heat. My aunt got to feel him yesterday so that was neat! She never experienced a pregnancy so it's neat for her. She is so excited for Jacob's birth.
We have had a few people call to RSVP for the shower. It ended up we have 130 people on the list! OMG that's a lot of people. Some are from my work and Adam's home town so I know that at least most of them will not come. I anticipate that we will have about 65 people there.
A friend of mine just had her Gastric Bypass today and is doing ok. We go visit her on Wednesday.
We also have another ultrasound on Wednesday too. I can't wait to see him again and to see how much he has grown.

Ramblings

2006-08-03T17:26:00.000-04:00

Jacob has not been moving a lot lately. It has been so hot here... close to 100 degrees so I am hoping it is because of that. I know that when it is this hot I don't want to move around either so I can't say as I blame him but I just worry about him.
My parents bought us our crib on the weekend. I love it. It's the Chelsea by Simplicity 4 in 1.
We picked up the shower invites and they have been addressed amd sent out. There are 129 people on the list! Holy crap, I did not know I knew that many people! A lot of the people are from Adam's home town so I am sure most of them will not make the 10 hour trip! As much as I hope they do it would be nice to see them.
We went shopping at Carter's last week-end and my mom bought the baby some really nice outfits. He will be such a well dressed baby. We also picked up the Christening romper. Ooh, it is so sweet. I can not wait to see him in it. Also we bought his Christmas outfit too and it's red with snowmen on it. I love it.
I have my ultrasound next Wednesday then I see Dr Mundle on Thursday. I hope everything is ok but I am sure it is. I just wish Jake would move a bit more for some reassurance!
A friend of mine is having her gastric bypass surgery on Monday, which is my mom's birthday so I know that will be lucky for her. We will go visit her on the Tuesday! She is very nervous, but I know she is in good hands.

2006-07-24T18:39:00.000-04:00

I started my new shift last Thursday and it's going great. I love it. It goes by fast and I feel a more rested and less stressed.
My mom, Adam and I went to Babies R Us to register on the week-end. It was a lot of fun. I felt lost not really knowing what to register for! But, I am sure if I have forgotten anything I will have time to pick it up after the shower.
My mom and I put together the shower thank-you's this weekend so that's a big job done. And we ordered the shower invites and the thank you cards. They are so cute, I love them. They will be ready this week-end for us to pick up then it's addressing them and sending them out. The RSVP is for September 1st so we are going to get them out by the end of the first week of August!
Dr Mundle booked me an ultrasound once a month till I deliver because he wants to be sure that little boy blue is growing like he should be! Exciting to be able to see him each month now. My first one is on August 9th. I think my mom is going to come with me since she has not yet been to one.
Adam read to the baby the other night with the little microphone thing that we got with the baby monitor and the baby loved it well at least he jumped around a lot and I liked it! LOL. Adam is going to be sure to keep reading to him.
Adam started a new job last week and worked a tonne of hours. This week and going forward he will be on a dedicated run so at least he knows what he is working. I like that better. So does he.
Other than that nothing else is new.

Back From Dr Mundle

2006-07-19T12:50:00.000-04:00

Had my appointment with Dr Mundle today. It went well. I was up 4 pounds from last month but they said that was good! I am measuring right on target. I asked him to please take blood for iron so he did a complete blood count. I should know by tomorrow the results. I told him that I am so tired and kinda of grumpy and asked him if I could be put on 1/2 days for work. So he wrote me a script. I start my new shift tomorrow. It will be nice. Dr Mundle did the heart rate and it 150 again he had to keep trying because Jacob was a mover. Dr Mundle said that he must not like being monitored. All in all it was a good appointment. I see him again on the 10th of August and I have another ultrasound on the 9th of August.

2006-07-16T09:32:00.000-04:00

I can not believe how amazing that was.
When I called to book the appointment the receptionist told me to drink something sweet like orange juice. So on our way to the place we ate at Denny's and I ordered an OJ. I drank some of it then took the rest with me.
When we got the place their machine was not working properly so they asked if we would mind going to have lunch then coming back in about an hour that they should have the issue solved by then. That was fine with us since the office is about 3 hours from our home we knew it was easier to wait then to re-book. So we walked across the street to Wal-Mart and just walked around for about 1/2 hour then we walked back accross the street and ate some of the most awesome french fries ever. There is this fast food joint in Ontario called Fast Eddies and they have these Crazy Fries so we ordered them in Dill Pickle. Yummy, they were great. So we ate those and by now it was time to head back.
When we returned the receptionist said the issue had been solved and that there was one other Mother to be in the room but that it would not be too long. She had us fill out some papers and we waited maybe 10 minutes. I may even be exagerating on that but I was excited to see Jacob so it seemed like 10 minutes! I am not complaining mind you, just stating.
The tech came out and said she was ready for us and off we went to view our son! Or so we still hoped! LOL. The room was a nice size with a bed for mother to lay down on and 3-4 chairs beside the bed. In front of the bed on the wall was this gigantic T.V. screen so we had such a great view of the baby. There was no mistaken what we saw! We had brought a C.D. for her to play while we watched and to also have those songs on the DVD copy of the experience. So she put the CD in and away she went. I think it might have been a combo of the OJ and the dill pickle fries but our son was so active she was having a hard time keeping up with him! He moving and shaking so much it was funny. As we could see him elbowing me, I could feel it at the same time. That was awesome to see. I feel him all the time and try to guess what parts he hitting me with but to actually see it was amazing. Because his gestational age is still quite young his facial features are not as developed so his face still looks very bony. It was still east to make out the imagaes though and he does have some funny habits already. We noticed that like his mother he seems to have a really long neck! In our wedding video you can see me on the alter stretching my neck upward over the crowd so I can see who is the "audience" my mother liked to tease me and call me giraffe neck. Well, there was this one point in the video where Jake was doing the same thing! We laughed so hard it was funny. Then he even hid his face from us for a little awhile and once he looked like he was trying to climb up and out of my uterus. It looked a bit like he was rock climbing. I think we are in for it once this child is born! I think he is going to be very strong willed and why should he not be he comes from two parents who are. It was still hard to tell what he will look like, but there was one shot of him that I looked at that I saw our little nephew's face in. That would be great since our nephew is the cutest little boy EVER born! He looks just like the Precious Moments Kids. So to have a little man that looks like him would be so great! We'll see. We are going back in September with my parents because we want to be able to see him at an old gestational age. Plus, it was so much fun this time, I can not wait to see what the little tyke is up to in another 9 weeks or so!
We were happy to see that he is still a Jacob! That was the first thing my mother asked when we called to tell her we were through! "He's still Jacob right?" She really thinks (based on how I am carrying) that I am having a girl! But, she is slowly coming around! Not that she is not happy having a grandson it's just in our family boys are very rare and have never been born first! Out of 13 babies born in our family on 3 have been boys! So the odds were not in favour of a boy! It's great though to add some variety to our lives! LOL.

We're Back

2006-07-16T08:33:00.000-04:00

We had the best time. I am so happy we had the chance to get away. Visiting with Adam's family was great. His sister and I had a nice time together. We went to the lake swimming twice. It was too cold for me to go in the second time but it was fun to be with her and dear nephew. We had a blast with our nephew but he tired us out! It was worth it though because he is such a great kid. My sister and brother in law have done a great job raising him. He is such a lover. He is excited about the baby being born, but mistakenly thought he would be the baby's big brother. We told him that he would be the big cousin but that he could act like a big brother to him and that was a great alternative for him. His birthday is 10 days before the baby's due date so he is hoping the baby comes early! They will be seven years apart so it will be nice to finally have another baby in the family. It's just too bad that we live so far away. I would like for Jake to know his father's family. But, no I am not moving to the Island! LOL. I would go stir crazy there! Although we did see a house across the street from his dad's that we really like. It is just being built and very nice. But, I am happy where I am at. I guess I am a little selfish when it comes to where we live...I can admit that.
We went to our friend's campground for two nights...It was nice and peaceful there. Our neighbors were there and we broke down and asked them to be God-Parents... they were very touched and accepted. It was nice. We went out on their fishing boat but we did not fish. Then Adam and I rented Kayaks. That was fun. I loved doing that. It rained really hard one of the nights and our trailer leaked a little bit. The drops of rain fell on my cheek. It was funny.
We spent too much money in Niagara Falls but we had a blast so it was so worth it. The campground we stayed at was very nice and quite. We will be going back again sometime.
We went to the falls and did a Journey Behind the Falls tour. That was really neat. We did some of the fun house stuff on Clifton Hill and had so much fun. We walked a lot. On the one day I think we walked about 6KM. For us that is major, last year, Pre-Op we never could have done that. So it was a big accomplishment for us. We went to a Teddy Town Factory and built a little bear for Jacob. It was neat.

Holiday

2006-07-09T11:42:00.000-04:00

So we are on our holiday. We rented a Pop Up trailer and are camping. We just spent 2 nights in my father in laws back yard. LOL. It was nice, but, I was bored. Our little six year old nephew stayed with us the first night and I was not bored. He was so much fun. We played Connect Four and Trouble and had so much fun. The next day we went to visit Adam's great grandma and we took him with us. It was nice to visit with her. She is our only living grandparent so I always insist that we visit her when we are here. If we would have had a girl her middle name would have been his grandma's first name. Next time. Then we went to a place called Bridal Veil Falls and Adam and our nephew walked behind the falls. Our nephew thought that was pretty cool. It really was. Then we were so worn out. We had to drop him off at this mother's so we could have a nap! Last night, Adam and our Brother in law went four wheeling so I borrowed my sister in laws portable DVD player and rented the Producers. It was so funny.
Anyway, we are leaving to go to a camp ground owned by the baest amn from our wedding. Friend's of ours who live kiddy corner to us are going to be there too so it will be nice to see them. We are going to ask them to be God-Parents (but, not yet) so it's hard to be with them and not just blurt it out. I can not keep a secret when I am excitied! LOL.
Tuesday, we leave for Niagara Falls for 2 nights. And them Thursday we go for our 4-D ultrasound! Can not wait for that.
Anyway, that's it for an update.
Jacob had the hiccups last night and it was so funny! He has been very active and I love it.

Baby Depot

2006-07-02T18:36:00.000-04:00

My mom and I went to Baby Depot on Saturday to look at the baby bedding. We had gone with the intention of registering for a Winnie the Pooh set we thought we liked but when we saw it in person we realized we did not like at all. Then we found Sweet Dreams. And that was it. We only registered for things we knew we could not register for over here. So, we registered for the bedding and all the accessories, a high chair pad, a shopping cart cover, an oak high chair (becuase it was just so beautiful) and a walker... since they are ilegal to buy over here and I love them. The rest of the things we will register for here in Canada, I think we will register at Babies R Us and Sears or Wal-Mart. Adam and I will do that sometime in August.
Our niece's birthday was awesome. She had such a great time and was so cute. She really liked her book although I know she won't truly understand the meaning of it until she is much older, I am glad she has it. This is the letter I wrote to her at the end of her book:

Another year has passed and the impossible has happened. I have fallen even more in love with you than I ever thought possible. You have shared so much of yourself with me and again- from the bottom of my heart I thank-you. I thank-you for your laughter, for the love you have for life and for showing me the type of mother I aspire to be.
In just a few short months I will become a mother to your new born cousin. I want you to know that you will always be so very special to me, dear one and nothing can ever break the bond that has grown between us over the coarse of your sweet, precious life. I will hold dear to my heart all you have taught me about loving life and acceptance and I will use that to build my bond with my new son.
I so look forward to what adventures the third year of your life holds for us. Even though I wish I could freeze you at this age forever because you are so adorable, sweet and funny I embrace the changes we will witness as you become the person you are meant to be.
Dream big sweetness and remember: there is nothing in this life to high for you to aim for.

2 Years already

2006-06-30T17:48:00.000-04:00

I can not believe my dear sweet niece is Two Years Old today. The past two years with her have been amazing. I never knew I could love another human being as much as I love this little hunny. I know that I will love Jacob at a whole new level but sometimes my heart feels like it may just explode with love for her that I can not imagine how it will feel to love my son. I can not wait to experience that level of love though. Anyway we are going to celebrate her birthday tomorrow and I can not wait to see her. I made her a scrapbook with pictures from her second year. I did the same for her first year too. I will continue to do so till she is old enough to work on them with me. Then we will make them together.
My belly has grown in the last week or so. I am happy about that. I can not wait till I can't see my toes! Although with my boobs the way they have grown that has actually already happened, but you know what I mean. Also, little man Jake has been pretty active lately. I love it. Though poor Adam, whenever Jacob moves and I tell Adam to feel, Jacob instinctively stops moving. Adam spoke to my belly and told him...Jacob, this is the only time in your life you'll be allowed to kick your father, so take advantage of it now! It was quite comical actually.
My mom ordered some clothes for Jacob at this website called Best Dressed Child and they came in so tomorrow we are going to pick them up. I can not wait to see them in person. We are also going to Burlington Coat Factory to see the bedding we have chosen and to register for the shower for all our American friends. We have a few coming to the shower. I am excited about this. I can't wait!

Jake Strikes Back

2006-06-27T16:16:00.000-04:00

On Friday night Adam and my mom felt Jacob move. It was nice to share that with them. He was less active the rest of the week-end so my dad will have to wait a bit to feel him.
Also on Friday, Adam and I went to this store called Please Mum and bought our son 2 outfits that are just the most adorable little things in the world. I can not wait to see him in them. LOL.
On Sunday, my niece and I went for pictures at Sears. This is an annual ritual we do for her birthday. Last year I was 87 pounds heavier and boy what a difference a year makes. We all loved the pictures so much and spent way too much money. LOL. She is so worth it. I love her so much.
I went to Motherhood Maternity and bought two pairs of shorts. One black and one white. They were $15 each so that's not too bad and I need them to go on our camping trip!
It was a nice weekend.

Baby Soccer Player

2006-06-23T17:21:00.000-04:00

Jake has been very active the last couple days. I am feeling him move around a lot more. It is the neatest feeling in the world and so re-affirming. Plus I think all 10 ounces of him likes to rest comfortably on my bladder and then use it a punching bag! I am not complaining at all mind you, I love feeling him in there.
For the last few nights I have been playing him some classical music. We have a dual adaptor so the two of us listen together. I like it, it makes me feel that much closer to him. I can't wait till Adam can feel him move too. I know that will be exciting for Adam. He has been really feeling my belly a lot lately and talking to Jake, it is so funny some of the things he says to him! I love it so much! I can not believe that on Tuesday we will already be 1/2 way to his birth. It has gone by so fast. While I am enjoying being pregnant and now feeling his littleness inside of me, I so much want to hold him and kiss him and smell him and see him etc. But I can wait. Of coarse I want him to be fully cooked! LOL.

Ultrasound pictures

2006-06-21T08:27:00.000-04:00

I have not posted any of the ultrasound pictures from the other day because they are so lousy. You really can not see much of anything. I am disapointed they were not a little better. I know it is an ultrasound so the clarity is not suppose to be great, but I would have liked a nice profile of his little face or at least something that resembled a baby. LOL.
Adam and I have decided to go to this clinic in a town about 3 hours away called
UC Baby. They do the 4D ultrasounds and put them on video set to music. We will show it at the shower. But anyway it is not too far from where we will be for our vacation so we decided what the hell.
www.uc-baby.com
I can not wait to see him again. They video tape for about 30-40 minutes and they do a gender determination and a few other things. Dr Mundle said we would have another ultrasound in August but I want to se him on the screen in the 4D and have another confirmation that he is in fact a Jake. LOL.

Jacob Adam Warren

2006-06-19T16:23:00.000-04:00

So we go there at 845am and my bladder was full! Great fun. They came and got me at about 855am so I did not have to wait too long at all. She brought be back an asked me lay on the table and told me that once she took her measurments she would go get my hubby and dad. I was nervous and she did not talk a lot even though she was pleasant. She let me hear the heartbeat...150 and instictivly I said to myself, "it's a Boy!" She was taking pictures and measurements and had the screen turned away from me so the suspense was killing me not too mention the full bladder. Another tech came in and asked this girl if she was ready for her break so they traded spots and the pleasant but not talkative one went to get my family. I then asked the new talkative lady if I could please go to the bathroom she said yes. By the time I came back my dad and Adam were just arriving. I climbed back on the table and she measured the rest. Then she turned the screen to the three of us and said "there's his penis" I started to cry, Adam started to Brood and my dad said, "A penis, she's not suppose to have a penis!" And the girl started laughing and said I'm sorry sir, HE does have a penis. And my dad punched Adam in the arm and said "You got a boy, I never had a boy!" It was very funny. Then the two of them started planning what type of Go-Kart they would build for him. I felt like this was their baby and I was just along for the ride! It was so funny though.
Then we went to see Dr Mundle who was very happy that my rash was so much better. He said everything looks great with the baby that the growth is right on track for where I am and that the baby weighs about 10 ounces now and would fit in the palm of our hand. OOH so small. He said that everything is on track for the November 13th due date But that the baby is on the high end of the weight percentile but still normal. Chubby baby! LOL. I will post the pictures once I can scan them at my mom's.
It was a very exciting day for all of us.
I can not wait to meet him. 4.5 months left.

Wish Us Luck

2006-06-19T07:38:00.000-04:00

UPDATE: IT'S A BOY! Will update more later.

Today is the day we go to find out if we are having a boy or a girl! I am nervous and excited both. My father and Adam are going to be there so that is exciting. My mom has to work! They will be doing a "level 2" anatomical ultrasound today to be sure everything with Babeboo is progressing well. I am sure things are fine, but it's still kinda nerve racking. Once I see the little jelly bean on the screen I will feel better. It's been since April that we've seen him/her and I kinda miss him/her.
Everyone in my family...expect Adam, thinks I am carrying a girl...There is one lady at work and of coarse Adam who think I am carrying a boy. I am carrying all around and in my butt. My mom has always believed that means girl, but the lady at work she believes that is boy based on the fact that that is how she carried her boys. Me? Well I have always seen myself as a mother of boys and I thought right up until I found out we were pregnant then I thought...girl and did right up til about 3 weeks ago when I starting feeling I might be carrying a boy. If the way I am carrying and the baby's heartbeat are any indication, then I think we are having a girl. Does it matter? No, not at all. We have waited so long for this that I am just happy to be becoming a mother.
I will update this as soon as we get back so hang tight. Our appointment is at 9:00am Eastern Standard time and then I see Dr Mundle at 930am. I should be back to work around 1030.
Talk to you soon.

As Promised!

2006-06-13T23:58:00.000-04:00

Pictures have been uploaded. Please click on the bar on the left hand side that reads...check out my pictures.
Here is a sneak peek though.

I am still here!

2006-06-13T12:23:00.000-04:00

This week-end my dad and Adam built the deck! OMG it looks so great. Just to have a porch on the front of the house looks "normal" but they did such a great job and it is a great size. 8X16. We put two chairs on it and there is still tons of room. I can not wait to get some flowers to add to it. That will set it off. Tonight, I swear I will be putting pictures up in my Flicker account.
My mom and I went yard saling. She got a crib and crib bedding for her "nursery" and a playpen for next summer out in the back yard. I bought a really great umbrella stroller that folds up really easily and has a basket at the bottom for storage. I also bought a couple of outfits for babeboo. Mostly pink, but that's just because they had more cute girl things then boy and if we end up having a boy I will just give them to my best friend for my God Baby! So it all works out.
Adam and I went to Babies R Us on Friday to buy a shower gift for our friend's. We bought them 2 sleepers a hat and a scrapbook. I found it hard to shop for her since she did not register and she did not find out what she having. We looked at some strollers and some swings. I know we will end up registering there but I have to say that the Babies R Us in the States is so much better! LOL. None-the-less we had fun dreaming. The last time we were at Babies R US in the highchair department it was to buy a highchair for my cousin's shower 2 years ago. It was a really dark time for me in my quest to become a mother and I ended up crying my head off in the department...it was very hard on Adam since he knew my heartache. Now looking back it is quite comical because there was a little Asian lady in the row and I think I freaked her out because once I started crying she turned to her husband and said something in her mother tongue and they turned themselves inside out to get out of the aisle! I laugh now when I think about it but then I could not get out that store fast enough. Adam, at the time said don't worry hunny it will be our turn one day too and you'll probably still be standing here crying because you will be so overwhelmed and hormonal! LOL. Leave it to him. That's why I love him so much. So Friday was a much better experience for us, that's for sure.
My mom took a picture of me this week-end...I swear it's hard to tell but I will put it there tonight. LOL>
At the shower on Sunday, the ladies were saying "Are you sure you're pregnant? You're not even showing? You're 4 months, really" I wanted to punch them in the head. LOL.
We have decided to rent a trailer this summer for a week and go up North to visit Adam's family and friends. Then we will head back home and stop in Niagara Falls for a couple days. I am excited about the trip, it will be fun. I have not been back to the island since we burried Adam's mom almost 2 years ago, and I miss my nephew terrible. He is 6 years old and as adorable as anything. I love him so much. Our best friends will be on the island too when we are there so it will be nice to be able to spend some time with them. We'll have to ask Adam's sister if she minds if we take our nephew with us to the camp ground so he can play with our friends little girls. That would be so much fun.
I will get those pics uploaded tonight as soon as I get home! My computer still has dial up since high speed is not available in the boondocks so it will take me all night! LOL. They will be avaiable tomorrow!

Update The rash is getting or should I say has gotten a lot better... I just have some small episodes of itchiness so needless to say there is a lot less episodes of bitchiness! LOL. I am happy to report that I think I will live now! Thanks for all your concern.

Productive Week-end

2006-06-06T12:07:00.000-04:00

We did a lot this week-end. Well should I say bought a lot! We bought new bedroom lamps they look great. Bought the wood for our deck that Adam and my dad will be building this week-end. Bought a new fridge from CostCo. I love it. It is so quiet and clean and new. Bought a wooden highchair for babeboo and an old fashioned Pram that I have to SOS the metal and it will be good as new. I love that too. Last night we bought the baby it's first Hooter's diapershirt. It is so cute I can not wait to see him/her in it. We chose the paint for the bedroom, the dining room and the living room. Once the deck is completed we will be moving to the kitchen and buying a new stove and moving some cupboards out of the way to make room for a normal size stove instead of the apartment size one that's there now. Then we will buy a section of counter space and build a breakfast bar in our kitchen so we will have an eating area and not have to use the dining room all the time. In the bathroom we will be redoing the floor and the vanity will be changed to oak we will be replacing the tub surround and changing the trim and the linen closet door. Lots to do, but now that we have the moola we are very motivated. We also chose the french doors for our bedroom, the bathroom and the baby's room. They will make the house look so rich. I can not wait to see how it all turns out.
I will be taking pictures this week-end of my belly, the pram and the highchair.
The rash is less itchy.... Thankfully. I went to see Dr Mundle yesterday and he saw how tormented I was and that the rash was no better and had actually changed so he called a dermatoligist friend of his and discussed my issue and the dermatologist said that he would see right away. So he said it was a fungal rash and said it has to take it's 6 week coarse but he gave me some stronger cream that seems to be helping in the day. It's the nights that are so bad.
I have been feeling a lot of flutters and they are stronger than they have been. It's the weirdest feeling ever. I can't wait till Adam can feel it too. He keeps putting his hand there but nothing happens yet. Soon I am sure.

2006-06-01T17:34:00.000-04:00

I called in sick to work yesterday because the night is the worst for the rash and Tuesday night I was up all night. Yesterday, it seemed like it might be getting better. But, then I wore my silk night gown all day and only put my bra and other clothes on to walk to the mail box! It wasn't bad. Then last night...it flaired up again. Too weird. Today again I had some bouts of itichiness but I brought some aloe vera gel to work so it was good to just soothe the itchies. I will be sure to continue to bring it in. I called to make an appointment with Dr Mundle and could not get in to see him till Monday. I really hope I can cancel that appointment. If the rash stays maintained as it has been today and yesterday than I should be fine. Let's cross our fingers. I can not believe it is already June. In 5 more sleeps I will be 4 months pregnant! I still can not believe I am pregnant at all let alone 4 months almost. It amazes me.
We go to sign the papers tonight at the bank. Then we get to go shopping on the weekend! Yippee! I love shopping!
I started my pregnancy scrapbook this weekend that just past. It is turning out really nice I am excited to see how it progresses. I have to get the pictures from Mother's Day developed. And I should take a belly shot too. I have popped a bit. My but sure has gotten bigger, that's for sure. LOL.

As the Rash Burns!

2006-05-30T17:37:00.000-04:00

So the whole rash thing has not gotten any better. In fact it's gotten a lot worse. I have scratched my skin raw and I am so sore. I hate the way I feel so much. I went to see my family doctor after the remedies dear OB suggested failed royally. She tends to think it's a yeast infection. Great. So now I have all this canestan cream to rub all over my body. She gave me to jars of it and I finished one yesterday! I am giving it till tomorrow to work and if I have no relief..short from jumping out of my skin, I will go back to Dr Mundle. I could live with being spotted for the next 5.5 months but the itch has got to go! I feel so guilty being so miserable because I want to be pregnant so badly... but I feel so bad I find myself wishing it were November already. I really thought I would enjoy being pregnant but right now I can say I hate this side effect. I have not felt any more flutters in awhile so then I think that maybe something is wrong with the baby. Then I feel scared and sad. I just heard the heartbeat at Dr Mundle's last Tuesday but as we know anything can happen at the drop of a hat. I have felt some cramping so then that scares me too but my mom told me that sometimes when it's suppose to be your time of the month sometimes you feel cramps; it would be my tom right about now. I need to just stop worrying.
On a more exciting note, we have decided to stay in our house and just fix it up. So this weekend we will be going to Rona and buying the wood for our deck the tub surround the new vanity and the flooring for our bathroom. Then we will go to Costco and buy our new fridge. We went to the bank and renewed our mortgage early so we got some money from the equity in our home. Then we will work on getting the living room and the dining room painted and new french doors in our bedroom! In September we will start the baby's room. Everything's starting to come together now. At least there are some good things to look forward to!

Unspecific Pregnancy Rash

2006-05-23T17:33:00.000-04:00

Will not cause harm to me our babeboo so that was a relief. He said to take Benydrill and use an Aveeno type cream. So I will go tonight to get some. He did the heart rate again and the baby kept fliipping over on him.. It was funny. But anyway the hear rate is 160! Still could be a girl! 4 weeks yesterday till the U/S. Did I mention that I can not wait to find out if the baby will be Jacob or Saulina? I think I might of once or twice.
So that was a non eventful appointment and as always he was a doll. Told me to come back if it gets worse or does not go away. And then said as I was leaving,, "I hope you feel better soon!" He is so sweet. Also, when you are lying on the table he always offers you his hand to help you up. No other OB has ever done that for me, male or female. That is such a nice touch. He really is so thoughtful.

Week-End Ramblings

2006-05-22T17:37:00.000-04:00

The wedding was nice. Adam was very busy all weekend. On Friday he did not even come home he just slept there. It was nice to have to bed to myself! LOL.I learned that I love ranch salad dressing and could not get enough of it! Yummy. After the wedding I went to a fast food restaurant to buy a salad and ranch dressing! I think that was my first wild craving! I could have it again. I think I will have my mom stop on the way home so I can get some ranch dressing!
On Friday night my mom and I went out to eat it was really nice. Then we went to Michaels and bought the materials to make our shower pins.. They are so cute little soothers. Pink and blue ones. The guests get one at the door and then there is one that is white and that person wins a prize! I found some invites I like I think I will buy them from there. They have tiny foot prints on them. We also went to the Thyme Maternity outlet because my cousin called to tell me that they had bras on for buy one get one 1/2 price and some p.j's on for $19.99. I desperately need both. I found a bra I really like but could not afford it just yet I did buy two t shirts one pink and one white. My mom bought me the sweetest baby journal to fill out for the baby. I can not wait to start it but I want to get a special pen for it.
We rebuilt our closet yesterday, my dad came over to help and my mom came too. We bought a rubbermaid closet organizer. I love it. It has the shelf tower in the middle and then 3 rods to hang clothes. I also bought a shoe rack so now the closet looks amazing! I want to do the same in the baby's room too. Since the room is so small it will be nice to have some extra storage. I was able to clean out a whole drawer out of my dresser. I also moved my mat clothes over to our bedroom closet. I tried everything on again and it would appear that my ass has grown! Some of the stuff that once fit are very tight in the bum! LOL. Also, we noticed that sometime over the weekend....my belly popped! I have a pouch now! It is still small but my regular pants are feeling a little tight and it won't be long before I have outgrown them. I took some of my "skinny" cloths and put them in a bin under my bed to make room in the closet so those will be goal clothes once again come November/December. I am confident I will get the weight off! I think too that I gained about 3 pounds! I will have to check again but it looks likes the scale went up. Only took 3.5 months!
I started getting a rash. It is on my neck, head, waist, under arms and legs. It really itches and I have been getting head aches too. I left a message for Dr Mundle so I am waiting to hear from him. It's like little pink bumps that pop when itched! I have had the chicken pox already and I was vaccinated for measels so I am just not sure what it is. Better not be measels I will be so scared for my baby. I mean I could handle raising a deaf child, I already know sign language but blindness would devastate me for the child's sake. I know we could get through it though but I would just be so sad. It would not make me love the child less of coarse but it would just break my heart for all the missed opportunity for them. I could not imagine a world where I could not see and to not share sight with my child would really hurt. I know I would learn different ways to share with them and it would force us to be creative in our thinking and that's not such a bad thing... but how do you explain colours to a child who has never seen? Ok so this topic is just morbid...moving on.
That was my weekend in a nut shell. I will keep you posted on the rash! LOL

Wedding Bells

2006-05-19T17:53:00.000-04:00

Adam is standing in a wedding this weekend. He will be very busy all weekend. Tomorrow I am going to get my nails done then buy the happy couple a present.
On Sunday, my parents are coming over so that my dad can help Adam put the closet they built together in October back together. On Wednesday night, I went to go into the closet only to find that the shelf and the rod had fallen out of the wall! LOL. It was quite laughable. So our clothes are now on the floor in the middle of our bedroom. We are going to get a closet organizer and rebuild the inside of the closet. Just something else to spend our porch fund on! That porch just keeps getting further away. I swear November is not that far away and we have so much to do. We want to buy a new fridge for the kitchen build a breakfast bar and move the microwave stand across the room then put up a small mural over the breakfast bar so that it would appear you were sitting in front of a window looking out into a meadow lay some new linoleum down. Then we want to redo the tub surround in our bathtub and re-do the flooring. We put cermaic tile in 3 years ago and I hate it I want to take it out and get a nice sheet of linoleum to put down. Next we want to paint the living room and maybe the dining room but that room has cathedral ceilings so I would want to hire someone for that. I am not about to paint that myself. The other rooms are fine for me. Then of coarse we need to assembly the nursery! That will the most fun of all I can not wait for that. We have to find out what we are having then it will be fun to decide. I already have a few options but can't choose till I know for sure! So we have a lot of work to do and very little money to do it with! It will be interesting to see how much gets completed. The ulimate for me though would be to sell the dump and buy a new house! But then I woke up! LOL.

Work Work Work

2006-05-16T23:11:00.000-04:00

Recently, it has come to my attention that some people from my work have been checking out my blog. I don't have a problem with people visiting just not for the purpose I hear they are coming here for. If I had a privacy issue, I would not have a blog but don't try to use things I write here against me. Grow up. IF I say I hate my job and want my mat leave to start now it doesn't mean I am leaving tomorrow. Nor does it mean if I am having a really crappy day and say I may go see my doctor so she can write me a note to go off again that I am going for sure... I am merely blowing off steam which is one reason I have this blog!
I don't want to have to sensor what I write on this blog but I may have to start if I keep hearing things are being twisted.
So to my co-worker readers, welcome, pull up a chair, leave a comment or two or three, talk to me about what you read... there is nothing I write here that I would not otherwise speak to anyone about anyway. But, please take things you read here at face value and remember that you too have bad days and say things just to bitch. I am not going on cookoo leave again anytime soon... I am the healthiest I have been in a very long time. I am not leaving for Matleave until way later in my pregnancy and trust me when I figure it out... you will be the very first to know!

Dr Mundle

2006-05-15T12:52:00.000-04:00

It was a good appointment with a lot less waiting this time! Only about 10 minutes. Good for him. We talked about the whole mid wife thing and though he said he supports my decision. He did tell me that last year his average delivering his own patients was 85% and that was the same average most mid wives could state too. So to me why would I jeopordize my prenatal care to build a relationship with a midwife when there is a 15% chance she will not be there to deliver my baby anyway. I love Dr Mundle so I have made the choice to have Dr Mundle deliver my bundle! LOL. We used to heartbeat monitor and heard it loud and clear. The heart rate is 165! I am thinking that is leaning towards my girl! I hope! My best friend's baby's heart rate was close to that and she is having a GIRL!!!! So fingers crossed. I have my gender determination ultrasound booked for June 19th! Let's hope the baby is an exhibitionist just like it's mother and opens wide so we can see for sure what is in there. Hope hope hope! But all is well in babyville!

Happy Mother's Day

2006-05-14T09:05:00.000-04:00

Adam bought me a fetal heartbeat monitor. It is amazing. You can hear the heartbeat, talk to the baby, read to the baby, and play the baby music. It's the one form Motherhood materinty. We treid using it and could hear little movements but it said we probably would not hear the heartbeat until about 5 months. I can't wait.
I see Dr Mundle tomorrow, I am looking forward to talking with him about mid-wifery and seeing where he stands on the issue for me. If he is unsure about it then I will hit with my plan to have him and only him deliver our baby. We'll see how that works out for me! I also hope he can show me the baby again and tells me when we will book the next ultrasound to determine the sex of the baby! I can not wait for that.
We finally decided on a name for our girl should we be having one!!!
Saulina Florence Noble. Saul was my grandfather's name and Florence was my grandma's and is Adam's grandma's name. So it's perfect. The baby is due the day before my grandpa's birthday so it's so fitting. And of coarse the boy will be Jacob Adam Warren. Adam changed it from Saul to Warren because he thought that if we had a boy this time and used Saul then we wouldn't want to use Saulina for our girl! My father's hebrew name is Yankle which can be translated into english as Jacob, Adam of coarse comes from Hubby and Warren is my dad's middle name. If it was my choice I would just have Jacob Warren so that his first two initials match my dad's (it's a jewish naming thing) but Adam really wants a Jr and I don't so we comprimised that way. All the boys in ADam's family have 3 names anyway so this way the tradition fits. If you but Jake's initials together they spell JAWN! Sounds like John! LOL. Too funny. Saulina's are fine SFN. Simple. So that's setteled. Now we just have find out what we are having and we'll be all set.
Happy Mother's Day to all out there. Hope it's a nice day for you. The weather here sucks! But I am not letting ruin my day! I am wearing a maternity top today!

2006-05-10T18:34:00.000-04:00

I spoke to a midwife today. It did not go well. She feels I am too much of a risk to have a home birth and that I am in the best place I could be with Dr Mundle. I told her that I had no doubts about the pre natal care Dr Mundle could offer me however I am concerned about when I go into labour and end up in the hospital and he is not on call and some asshole comes strolling through the door a hospital situation is not what I am comfortable with. She said well you could go through your prenatnal care with Dr Mundle than call us you know when your in the last part of your pregnancy and we can see if we have an opening. I said you're missing my point, I would like to build a relationship/rapport with the person who will bringing my child into the world and if I am coming to you at the end it kind of defeats my purpose. I asked her why she could not monitor me as closely as say Dr Mundle could and she explained that it is because she has limits. For example I will need a level 2 ultrasound and she can not order those. She was reallt sweet, I really can not say anything bad about her. Honestly, I admire her for her honesty and she seemed to really care about my well being and that of our baby. She did suggest to me to talk to Dr Mundle about my fears about not having him be avaiable to deliver my baby and she said I have seen Dr Mundle do it for other women..he is kind of a push over that way! That made me laugh and I know he has offered that to others because he did do that for my cousin. I think I will have use my feminine wiles on him on Monday. She also suggested that I be seeing a dietician and I do agree with her so I will ask Dr Mundle for a refferal when I see him. I was a little upset when I got off the phone with her because I felt like I really don't have a choice in this but then I realized that's true I don't This is not about me really it's about our baby and what is best for him/her and if being closely monitored by a high risk OB is best for baby than that is what I choose, hands down. If the midwife is not equipped to handle our special needs than I want the one who is equipped. I know that by far that person is Dr Mundle. I will talk to him about this though and see where he stands with it.
I took a sick day today because I have been so tired, it does not matter how mcuh sleep I get I am just tired. Plus, I have been getting a headache everyday lately and I had a lot of gas that was making me very uncomfortable and I have been very dizzy and lightheaded. Not to mention that I hate going to work lately. I wish I could go off on Mat leave now. LOL. I think I am a little dehydrated. I have a hard time getting all my liquids in each day. Being a gastric bypass patient I can not drink about 20 minutes prior to a meal and I have to wait 30 minutes after a meal befor resuming drinks. So it's difficult because I have to eat 6 small meals a day. Since becoming pregnant I also feel hungry ALL the time so I feel like I am eating all the time. I maybe get in 5-6 8 ounce glasses of liquids. I know I need to get those extra 2-3. I am going to talk to Dr Mindle about that too. In Ypsilanti that told me I may have to put in the hospital a few times to get IV fluids. I would like to not have that happen but again whatever is best for baby.
My best friend found out yesterday she is having a girl!! Yeah! I will be God Mother to a little girl! I am thrilled. Of coarse I would have been equally thrilled to be God Mother to a boy. I told Adam now I really hope we have a girl too how sweet will they be together? But then when I thought about it I thought I bet that means we will have a boy. We are so surrounded by little girls that I am sure it's our turn to bring a boy into the mix! Not that I mind either way. Plus, then I said to Adam.. she is planning on calling the baby Olivia so let's see Oliva Noble ooh that sounds nice... Mr and Mrs Jacob and Olivia Noble!! If we have a boy we'll just prearrange thier marriage! LOL. Too cute. I am 13.5 weeks now so we should be able to find out in another 5 weeks or so! I can not wait to know what we will be having... I am excited to decorate the nursery and know for sure what his/her name will be!

Signs of Life

2006-05-08T08:52:00.000-04:00

Yesterday I was standing in my mothers computer room watching my dad and Adam look at racing websites while my mom was sitting on the bed being bored to tears by them. We are such a close family that we like to be together. LOL. So anyway I was standing surrounded by the glory of my family when I felt this funny little flutter. I said "what the hell was that?" My mom said what? I said there was this little flutter. She said "welcome to the second trimester...you just felt life" I was so shocked and happy. It was the neatest feeling ever. I felt it about 10 more times yesterday. This is getting more and more real for me. Thank you God for this experience.

Hypnobirthing

2006-05-05T22:58:00.000-04:00

I have been thinking about taking some birthing classes but I don't know which ones are better than the other. I just read about Hypno Birthing. Has anyone experienced birth through this technique or been through the classes. I like the idea of it, I just don't know if Adam and I are patient enough to learn the relaxation techniques! I have also been thinking a lot about a water at home birth. There is a doctor in a town near us that will assist in this. I am just not comfortable with the hospital birthing experience and if I go into labour in the middle of the night I will end up with the doctor who is on call. I am not comfortable with that. I think too, I would feel a lot more comfortable in my own home. I really love my OB, but there is no guarantee that he will deliver my baby. I am unsure of broaching the topic with him because I am afraid that he will be offended. I know it is my choice but I don't want to burn my bridges! Also, we live about 40 minutes from the nearest hospital, so if something were to go wrong we are a good distance away from help. When my cousin went to the same hospital to have her baby they just did what they wanted to with her. Gave her the pip drip etc and she never thought to ask what they were doing. I know I would never be that passive, I would want to know what they were doing to me at all times. But I have heard stories about how the nurses have the attitude that they know best. I know they do this for a living but I also think a woman knows her body best and I want to be heard on the most important day of my and my baby's life. I have thought about hiring a doula, but all the ones I have met in this area I have not felt comfortable with. I would really like to have a drug free birth. I know that might sound unrealistic, but it's how I imagine my baby's birth. I am deathly afraid of the epidural. I had a friend go paralyzed from one and she had to have emergency surgery to correct the problem. Luckily, she ok today with very little issues but she missed so much of her baby's first couple years of his life due to the mishap. I don't want that. I know that is one story out of a thousand. But I want to be able to get up and walk if I want to and not be confined to a bed for God knows how many hours. I think I will call the water birth doctor and see how I feel about him and what he has to offer. Then once I speak to him, I will speak to Dr Mundle about if he thinks that would be the best plan for us, giving my post opness!
Anyway, if anyone can share their birth experiences I would greatly appreciate it. What techniques you learned before hand, or if you just winged it!! If you had a home birth, water birth etc. I would love to gather as much info as I can.
Thank you in advance.

Good Morning Glory!!!!

2006-05-02T12:33:00.000-04:00

Our phone was ringing off the hook this morning at 521am. My first thought was oh shit who died? Well thankfully no one died. It was Adam's work calling to tell him not to come into work because a feeder plant the haul for went on strike on midnite and all their runs were on hold til further notice. Great news. I could not really get back to sleep after that. I tossed and turned. Then I had this thought that the big tree in our front yard fell over and landed on our house (it was really windy) then I imagined the new house I could build in it's spot. Boy, it was a great house, but I would really rather have been sleeping.
Tomorrow, my dad will come over to help Adam put up the new shutters, that will be nice. We have had them for about 2 weeks. I can not wait to see how cute the house will look with them. I will be sure to take some pictures and post them. If I can find a good before I will too. We just replaced all the windows and siding. I hope they can work on the front porch too. Maybe if they get motivated they will attempt it. A girl can dream can't she? LOL.

2006-05-01T13:00:00.000-04:00

My friend and I went to the states on Friday for some girl time and shopping. She needed some maternity clothes and I just wanted to spend some time with her. We had such a nice time. We went to Motherhood and I bought a pair of navy blue pants which is really all I had left to buy. They were on sale for $9 so you really can't go wrong! Plus, I found this so cute top for $12. I just had to buy that. I can not wait to wear it. I think I am going to wear it on Mother's day!!! I found some cute shoes too. Payless had Buy One get One Free!!! Gotta love it.
On Sunday Adam and went to a place called St Jacob's to meet a friend of mine and her new beau. We had a really nice time and walking around St Jacob's was good exercise. I found a pregnancy calendar that is just so cute. I had to fill it out as soon as I got home!!! And now it is hanging on my wall in our bedroom. I can't wait to share it with our baby when they get older.
We have been trying to figure out names for our little one and we have a boy name selected but the girl name we just can't seem to agree on... That makes me think we will have a girl!!! I really would like to have a girl, but I think we will have a boy. If the baby is born a boy his name will be Jacob Adam Saul. If she is born a girl we are wavering between Alexis Carolanne (Lexi) Natalie Tziporah or Renee no middle yet. I like all of those names but can not decide on one. I know we have about 6.5 months left but it is fun and exciting to imagine what her name might be. I know it will also depend on what she looks like. We might decide on one name, then see her and she is something so different. We'll have to wait and see. We don't find out what sex we are having until the end of June beginning of July so we just have to be patient. Something I am not at all good at. LOL.
Today, I am so grumpy. I hate my job today. I just want to leave and not look back. The customers are bugging me and it's taking everything out of me to just be nice. I don't usually have a problem being nice. I am very good at blowing sunshine up the customers asses. Just today, I don't know I am on the verge of loosing it. If I did not have to pick Adam up after work, I would go home but, to go all the way home 40 minutes just to drive back to get him 4 hours later for 40 minutes is such a waste of gas. He would kill me!!! LOL. I am going to make an appointment with my family doctor to see what she can do for me. Maybe she can write me off work for a month or so. Just so I can catch my breath or something. I can not afford to loose my job because I was bitchy. LOL. We'll see.
This week is the last week of our Spark's. I love the little girls well most of them but I am glad I will not have to think of anymore ideas .. I am idead out! Let me tell you. I will not be returning in the fall as I will be a little busy getting things ready for my little bambino, but I said I would help get the new unit off the ground if they found someone to take it over. I hope they do we have 3 sparks returning so I hope that things work out for them.
Anyway other than those little tidbits, nothing else is new.

Marks Work Wearhouse

2006-04-26T22:19:00.000-04:00

I used to work for Marks Work Wearhouse the year I got married. I loved the clothes, but I was too big to waer anything except the socks and the shoes. This weekend we were in London visiting Adam's aunt and we went to a Marks. They had jeans on sale for $10. They were a size 30. I held them up and they looked small. But, I thought what the hell I'll try them on anyway. They fit. I was so excited. I had to buy them. I know it won't be long before I grow out of them but I could not resist. Nw I just have to get them hemmed!! LOL joys of being a short ass.
I am still feeling good. Hardly ever queasy. I am very thankful for that. I am feeling less tired lately but my boobs still ache. I can not believe it is already 11 weeks 2 days. It seems like just yesterday I took the HPT. I know that things will start to slwo down a bit but for now I am enjoying that it is going fast. It's the 2nd trimester I am looking the most forward to. I hear that is the most fun. I can not wait till I feel the little tadpole move around. That will be funny.
On Friday my friend and are going to the states to shop for maternity clothes for her and then to look at nurseries for us both. She is due in September and she asked me to be Godmother, that I am so excited for. We are both excited that we'll get to share most of our mat leave together.
A friend of mine was pregnant last year at this time, she had her baby in December. Anyway we pregnant during the same seasons so she lent me 2 rubber maid containers full of mat clothes. Size mediums and larges!! I just need to get some navy pants, undies and a couple more bras and I'll be all set. How lucky am I? She is such a good friend.
Adam and I are going to St Jacob's this weekend to meet a friend of mine I have not see since 2000. We met on a trip to Jamaica and she is a good "long distance" friend. I am very excited to see her again. She just started dating a new guy so I am excited to meet him and she is equally excited to meet Adam.

Cordially Uninvited

2006-04-24T13:22:00.000-04:00

I forgot when we started to talk about adoption with CAS that they had said when adopting you have to be 100% commited to adopting at the time. You can not be working on fertility treatment options at the same time or preoccupied with something else like a pregnancy.
Today the case worker called to congratulate us on our pregnancy and to let us know we would be welcome to come to the classes once our baby is born and we have settled into life as new parents. This is because they don't want our child or an adopted child to be disrupted by a life changing event when one is already happening within the household. I totally understand and am not at all upset. It just was not meant to be at this time.
Adam said yesterday that he is more interested in Fostering anyway, so maybe that is the path we will be lead to take. Either way, I am finally happy with the direction my life is taking. I am exaclty where I should be and loving it. Everything else is just gravy!
Also a big double congrats goes out to my friend Milenka who just had her first ultrasound and is having TWINS!!! Yeah for you Milenka. There were to heart beats so all is looking well. I am so happy for her! Please pray for her and little bundles of love.

Another Parenting Decision

2006-04-19T12:35:00.000-04:00

We are going! He is a bit apprehensive because he feels now that we are pregnant why should we allow ourselves to be scrutinzed and placed under a microscope. I said taking the training will not hurt and it will be good for us to be able to say that we looked at virtually every option. We have so much love to give to any children that I don't want to deprive ourselves of providing a home to a child that would maybe otherwise sit in the system for eternity. I wish I could save them all however I know that is unrealistic.
There is a reason we were invited to this one, it will be God's will to show us why. I do not want to turn the opportunity down. I may one day regret it if we do.
It starts next Tuesday and goes for 10 weeks.

Children's Aid Society

2006-04-18T17:23:00.000-04:00

Last May Adam and I submitted paperwork to CAS for adoption. We have been waiting and waiting for them to call us about a training session that was to take place. We received the call today. It starts next Tuesday. What to do? The maternal instincts in my say go, take the training. It can only help and the more the merrier. Plus, who knows if we will ever be able to have another miracle on own. I feel like I want to keep my options open. Of coarse, Adam will think differently than I. He will say we are pregnant we don't need to adopt now. But too me its less about needing to and more about wanting to. I want to give a child home. I want to mother a child and nuture a child that had a less than optimal start in life. It may take years before CAS offers us a child anyway so what harm will it be to take the coarse? Then I think: what if there is a childless couple out there next on the list that should take our place. Am I being greedy if I accept to take the training because we have been granted a miracle of our own biology? I don't know. I just know that for almost a year I have waited with baited breath for this invite and I really don't want to turn it down. Now its just to convince Adam he feels the same way. Wish me luck!
My father predicted this would happen. He said everything for you will come all at once. You watch. Man I hate it when my parents are right! LOL.

Back

2006-04-17T16:49:00.000-04:00

Ok so I was there forever. He had 2 emergency c sections and another delivery to attend to. So we got there at 11 and were seen by him at 245pm!!! He was well worth the wait though. What a doll. He used that little doppler and we could hear a bit of the heartbeat but it was very weak...then the baby kicked the doppler and made us all laugh. So he took me across the hall to the ultrasound room and we got to see the little peanut. It looked much more like a baby this time and we saw the heartbeat. Then he turned on the machine and we heard the heartbeat. It was amazing. He said that everything is looking good and that once the heartbeat is seen the chance for loosing the pregnancy goes down to about 2%. I feel like I can finally breath. He said my blood work looked great and that my hemoglobin was high so he is not concerned about that. He said that I will have a few more ultrasounds to make sure the baby is developing at the normal rate since nutrition is a factor for us. He said that he really was not concerned with it though, but that it would be something we would watch to make sure it stayed in check. All in all a very good visit. I see him again on the 15th of May and rest assured I asked for the first appointment of the day!! LOL. Hopefully, I will not be there as long next time. Also I really hope this baby decides to come during the week so that he will be delivering our baby. But time will tell that for sure. I can not wait till May 15th now.

On My Way

2006-04-17T10:19:00.000-04:00

I am leaving soon for my appointment with Dr Mundle. I am nervous and excited. I hope he can find the heart beat. Adam is off today so he will be coming with me. I feel like I have a million questions and I can't think of any to ask. DUH! I will update when I get back. I am trying to remain positive that it will go well, but the other side of me thinks only doom impends! Time will tell.
This weekend, I was so tired. Friday we had our niece and I thought I would just fall over I was so tired. It was quite funny! She was awesome as always. I also felt a bit nauseaus which is unusual for me. On Sunday, I took a shower and had to lay down right after because I felt very spit uppy!! Luckily, I did not though. I am not compalining mind you. I would gladly be sick if it meant I was carrying a healthy, viable pregnancy.
My aunts, uncle and cousin all bought us really cute figurines. My one aunt knit us some cute booties and then gave us an angel that is so beautiful and is knitting booties. There is a really nice poem attached to it that made me cry about angels watching over my pregnancy. My other aunt, uncle and cousin gave us two cherished teddies, one is a pregnant bear the other is a mother bear sitting beside a cradle. They are both called awaiting the arrival. So sweet. It was so thoughtful of them to do that for us. They are so excited for us.

Back From The Ball

2006-04-11T13:58:00.000-04:00

We had such a good time at the Ball. It was so nice be amongst people who have had the surgery and understood where we have all been. One support group leader gave a really great talk about life after the surgery. It was very reaffirming. I don't think there was a dry eye in the hall!
I have uploaded some pictures to my Flikr account, but I will try to get one or two here too.

2006-04-05T08:33:00.000-04:00

I am so happy for my good friend Milenka. She found out she is pregnant and things are looking very positive for her. I have such a good feeling that this will be her time.
My friend Melinda, her hubby and their little girl are moving home to Ontario from Alberta today. I am so excited to have her home again. They will be living in the same city as us and that will the first time since we were in highschool. It will be so nice to have them close. Her pregnancy is progressing well, she is in her 13th week. Unfortunately she was diagnosed with Hyperemesis Gravidarium. Which is really bad sickness. She had to spend six nights in a hospital to replenish her electrolytes. She is starting to keep food down now. I pray that she will be better soon. It will be so nice to have someone to share pregnancy with. Her baby is due 2 months before ours so we will also get to share maternity leave together. It will be nice to have someone to go to Mommy and Me things together.
I picked up the bolero jacket I had the dress maker make for me. It turned out really nice. I am happy with how it looks with the dress. The ball is this weekend and we are all looking very forward to going. We will be staying over night and will be nice to get away-even if just for one night.
We are celebrating Adam's birthday on Sunday with cake and ice cream with our family. My aunt and uncle just returned from Arizona for 2.5 months so I can not wait to see them. Our house is so small but and we will have about 14 people there but I love entertaining so it will be fun. My two cousins will bring their daughters and they are so funny together. I love to see them interact.
As far as my pregnancy...all is well. I wish I felt more pregnant though. I did have some nausea last night so that made me feel hopeful. LOL. I can not wait to see Dr Mundle so that he can find the heart beat and I can hear that. Once that happens I will be more relaxed and it will feel more real to me. My cousin gave me a journal to write down all my thoughts and hopes and dreams and she wrote me the most beautiful letter. I read it to my mom and dad and they were both crying. It was so nice to hear what she had to say.

2006-03-31T08:49:00.000-05:00

Adam heard from the bus company; he passed the testing and is moving on to the next step in the hiring process. He will hear back from them again in about 2 weeks in regards to an interview. He is not sure if he wants to work there after some of things they were telling them at the testing... ie: not to expect weekends off til they have at least 10 years seniority and that he would be starting out at less than what he makes now till he got hired on to a city run. We could not really afford to have him take a pay cut so I told him just to wait and see what they offer him maybe they would be willing at the beginning to work around his work shift now so that he could do both. We have heard that might be possible. So we'll see what is meant to be will be.
On the pregnancy front... all is still the same. No sickness at all. Very little nauseau. Sore boobs:yes!!! Peeing more:yes!!!! Gas:yes, lots of it. Not really constipated though. And that is unusual for me since I have lived my life constipated. I have noticed some swelling in my abdomen but I read that could be related to bowels more than the growing uterus. But my lower stomach just above my pubic bone seems to be firmer and tender to the touch. Other than those little things nothing else is happening.
I am counting down the days till I see Dr Mundle, I was thinking maybe I would call his office next week to see if they recieved the report from the ultrasound and see if I could get in sooner to see him.
We have been recieving some congratulations cards from family and friends. It is nice to have the acknowlegments. My parents gave us a Precious Moments figurine that has a mother looking into a boot with five little faces staring back at her. It is the sweetest thing.